Day 279

Tuesday Fish and Chips, Wednesday movies, Saturday perhaps another movie, Sunday - Mom comes. This is my new countdown list. I've just been supremely pissed off, and have reverted to counting the days away. Pathetic I know, as I will certainly miss them...but when people don't respect you, it's better to countdown, and look towards the good than to lash out is it not?

So, without going into too much detail on why I'm so upset...let's talk about the rest of my day. I tried on about 4 different outfits this morning, and then got to speak to my parents this morning on Skype which was awesome. Then I went downstairs to get Zach his breakfast. The other 2 were finished. I stood to eat mine, and did the homework they had yet to do, with them. Once they finished, and Zach had his hair and teeth brushed, I sent him and Nathaniel outside. I then sat with Josh in the hall and spoke to him about the lack of respect I get, and why he's gone back to the way he was in the beginning. The short of it is...he doesn't know. Great.

The 3 of them played outside until it was time to go, and then we walked up to the school. As we were leaving, we saw a letter at the door...I HAD MAIL! I was so happy! I put it on the counter, and left, knowing I had something to look forward to when I got back. Because I had chosen to wear my sweat pant capris and a t-shirt...it was, of course, HOT! Too hot for what I was wearing. Not something I'd complain about, but I knew I had to change when I got back to the house. I settled on one of my dresses, shaved, and went to Braintree. I wore a pair of black heel sandals that I LOVE the look of. But every time I wear them, I feel so self conscious. They are THE loudest things EVER! Anyway, I had my tea, and wrote while sitting in the sunshine. I probably should have been drinking something cold...but oh well.

After that, I came back to the house and wrote the 2 blogs I had to catch up on. I watched the ridiculous Portugal game, and folded a HEAP of laundry. I could not believe how much there was. By the time I had put my mind to it, then actually did it while watching "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire"...it was time to pick the boys up.

I walked up to the school, and Nathaniel was walking up to Zach's class at the same time as me! He NEVER gets out right at the bell. I was shocked. I asked if he'd want to go to the park, and he said yes. Josh met up with us, and instantly ticked me off. He always makes me feel like such a melon! He started asking why I had changed. Why was I in different clothes. Then when I gave him the answer it was "Well, T-Shirts are for hot weather". Why does he live to aggravate me? Zach came out at the same time as Will, and Will asked if Zach could go to his place. I told him we were going to the park, and Will was welcome to come along. He did.

After about 45 minutes to an hour at the park, the boys had met up with quite a few of their friends, and had a good run around. I'd also told on a 7 and a half year old. Yup, you read that right. His grandparents or whoever was watching him had told him they had to leave, and he said that they could start walking, he'd catch up. They began to walk away, and I watched as he walked up to a little girl he must know, called her name, and said he had something to show her before he left. That's when he whipped himself out. Luckily, I did not actually see anything, but I knew what he was doing, and the action was confirmed when he did it a 2nd time. I called out to his guardians, and told them that I knew it was only children, but if it was mine, I would want to know. The grandma or whoever, thanked me, called him over and told him he was going with them to the shops, and they were going to have a chat. My goodness!

Tina came by with her kids and we talked for a bit, then the 4 boys and I walked back to the house to get the car, and drove Will home. When we got back to the house, I had to make dinner quite quickly as Josh had cricket tonight. I threw some pizzas in the Aga, peeled/cut some carrots, and dumped some salad on each of their plates. I made myself a salad, and began running the laundry upstairs before eating. Heloise had gotten home, and was rushing around vacuuming and tidying before the new cleaner came over. - Yeah...I don't understand that either.

I ate, and when the cleaner arrived, Josh had gone with Tim to cricket, Nathaniel was on Wii, and Zach and I had just finished his homework. I tried to keep Zach out of Heloise's way as they toured the house, and that resulted in a bit of a meltdown from Zach. In the end, I put him on the step, where he cried for probably 10 minutes. Heloise asked what happened to him, and then said "Or is he being naughty?" I told her he was being naughty, which probably wasn't completely fair, as it was her who had really upset me...and I was taking the worst out on him cuz he was adding to the aggravation. Anyway, I dealt with him, and after the cleaner left, I came up to my room. I cleaned it up a bit, had a shower, tried to fix my msn - it didn't work. Now I'm listening to music, and am debating doing my hair before I sleep. Perhaps I'll do it between the school run and Starbucks instead. Yes I think I'll just try to calm myself down now before I sleep. Good Night xx