Day 244

Why is it that you can try to look your best, really like your outfit, feel good about yourself, and think a guy is ACTUALLY looking at you...and then it all has to end? Keep reading to find out what I mean...

This morning was fine. The boys got ready, and then read while I did Zach's teeth and hair. The 3 of them went outside to play cricket, and I finished getting ready. I was in heels and a dress, so we took the car today and were able to leave a little later than usual. (Nathaniel was still being rude today, and was making me angry).

We got to the school, I dropped the 3 of them off, and then I came back to the house to make sure I had everything I needed, and headed to Braintree. When I got there, because it was so nice out, I got my Starbucks and sat outside while I wrote a card. As I sat down, it felt like something had fallen on my knee. When I looked at it, I had a little bit of a run. Crap! Oh well, it's not that big or noticeable - I thought - When I finished, I went into the Chocolate store, I got some cream eggs, and then went to tell the information centre that I had found my phone. Once they deleted the information from the computer, I went into Claire's. I was looking at pearl bracelets - gathered ones that Fifth Avenue doesn't sell - Well, I crouched down to look at some others, and that's where it all went wrong. The run got bigger, down my knee! CRAP! Now it was going to be noticeable :( I decided, as I wasn't sold on any of the pearls anyway, that I would leave. I got up, and walked out, attempting to hide the run with my shopping bag. This guy that I think was smiling at me, must think I'm a huge bitch. I completely avoided eye contact with him (and the other 2 guys that had been doing some type of construction the entire time I had my coffee), all because I was so self conscious. He was a good looking guy too. Dammit. I felt so bad, but I was SO aware of the run, there was nothing I could do. Unless I took them off in the bathroom, but then it would have been like the 4th time I walked past them in a matter of minutes...so I decided against it, and continued to the car.

I drove back to the house, and when I arrived, because it was os sunny out, I decided to have fun with my camera. It was awesome. I felt a couple of rain drops, and decided I'd better go in. I then did laundry (as usual), and watched Grey's Anatomy. Then, while watching Desperate Housewives, I made a "Countdown til Maija's gone" chart for the boys. That's when the phone rang. It was Josh's soccer coach. Josh was in a panic because he had a big soccer game with the kids a year older than him, and he had forgotten his shin pads. I told him I'd run them over right away, and that's what I did.

I found a parking spot further away than I'd hoped, as I was still in my dress and heels (no nylons), and as I drove to the school, it had started to drizzle. Well...I opened my door, got out...and the heavens opened. It began to pour down on me. Awesome, I thought. I couldn't walk any quicker because of the heels I was in, so I just put my head down, and endured the weather. The secretary seemed to think I was great. She's the one I always talk to when the boys forget something, and she kept saying "AWWW Bless you!"

I walked back to the car, and drove to the house. It was now probably 5 to 3, so I ran upstairs to change (Although I didn't want to), and I put the laundry away, all in a hurry so that I could get back to the school, and pick the other 2 up. Well wouldn't you know it, I looked out the window, and it was sunny again. I walked outside, ok...jogged...got into the car, and drove back to the school parking far away again as I was later than usual. I got out, and was so hot in the jacket I had thrown on. I was angry at the weather.

I got the boys, and Nathaniel ended up yelling at me on the way to the car. It was then that I decided I wasn't going to talk to him properly for the rest of the day. We drove to my Aunt and Uncle's, and when we got there, I talked to her for a bit, then the two of us sat and watched the boys play with bubbles. Soon enough, I couldn't resist the temptation. I too, joined in the bubble fun. - Still not being very nice to Nathaniel - My Uncle and Josh got in in time for dinner, we all sat and ate. They went to play outside for a bit, and I stayed in the kitchen helping to clean up.

When Josh and my Uncle left for swimming, I cleaned up all of the bubble things, and got the other 2 ready to leave. As we were leaving, and in the car, Nathaniel said something to me. I turned to him and said, "In case you haven't noticed, I'm not really talking to you right now, and until you learn how to treat me better, I'm not going to talk to you very nicely". He tried to get me to talk the rest of the way home, but I turned the music up, and only answered Zach's questions.

When we got in, I came up and washed my hair, the boys went to bed, and then I sat downstairs waiting for Glee to start. I spoke to some people online, and watched with Heloise. Then I came up to talk to my Mom on Skype, and write the rest of this. I really should be going to sleep soon though. Good Night xx