Day 226

So I'm sitting in my room FREAKING out right now. There's this giant bug, that would make you think it's a wasp, but it doesn't have any of the same markings, hanging out on my chandelier...and it's creeping me right out. I don't want to keep my door open, cuz then the spiders from the rest of the house will get into my room, but I want to go out. I can't go out, until I get this bug out, or I won't be able to sleep tonight. He won't leave. If he won't leave, and I can't keep the door open....how am I going to get him out?? :( DADDDDDDDDDDDDD! I really hope it leaves soon. I've been on the verge of tears for the last couple of hours, so I really need to get out, and sit in the sunshine with a Starbucks. I don't know how much longer the sun's going to last...so this bug better hurry up! ARRRRRGH! Why does he keep flying around the light? Just get the eff out!

I guess while I'm stuck in here, I'll tell you about the beginning of my day. It was ok. I heard the boys fighting this morning as Tim got their breakfast, and I did my makeup. It was all about Nathaniel "bugging" Josh. Some days Josh just gets in these moods where everything Nathaniel does, drives him nuts. I can understand that. After all, I'm in a mood today. I stood up here, in my room, looking into the mirror and finishing my eye shadow, thinking, "Don't let their fighting bother you. Just go downstairs with a smile, you don't need to get into it cuz Tim is there". And so I did.

When I got downstairs, Josh was eating in the playroom, and Nathaniel came in the kitchen to relay the happenings to me. I told him I heard it all from upstairs. He stopped trying to tell me about it. He finished his breakfast, and Tim made Josh come out of the playroom to eat the rest of his. Zach was downstairs and eating his first course, by the time Tim left.

Because Nathaniel was done eating, he was up running around and "putting spells" on the other two. I was telling him to leave them alone while they ate, and that's when Heloise came down. She decided if they were having fun, they had time for homework. NOOOOOOO! That was it. The schedule I've had them on all week, was thrown out of whack. They were each given different things they had to do, and my morning suddenly got hectic as Heloise left the house. Awesome.

I did Zach's flash cards with him, then we worked on numbers. Nathaniel and I did his math, and then Josh and I did his math. When we finished that, Nathaniel, Zach and I played Ludo, while Josh ready to me. He finished his book just before it was time for them to get his stuff on, and due to the homework, I had yet to have time to do Zach's teeth and hair. I ran up to finish getting myself ready, then called Zach up. We raced around, and eventually got out of the house.

As we were crossing the street, I said "Do you see why I HATE doing your homework in the morning" (because Josh had made comments about preferring it again today). He said No. I had told him earlier that he prefers it cuz he doesn't have as much to do as I do, and it's therefore not as stressful. This time, I turned to him and said it was because when we do homework in the mornings, we NEVER get out of the house on time. Nathaniel prefers doing it at night. Thank Goodness!

...I just lost the bug...CRAP! I think it's behind my curtains :S Yep it is. Dammit, I'm never going to get out of here!

I asked Zach if he remembered how quickly we had to walk to Beavers last night. When he said yes, I said we had to go even quicker than that to get to the school today. Those words didn't work. He kept stopping and telling me to look at his leg etc. I fixed his leg up, which I guess he had scratched on something, it was just a white mark, and earlier it was his pinky bugging him, so I wasn't TOO concerned...and I told him to race Josh to school. Well that was it. He passed me his things, and off he went. I'VE FOUND THE WAY! The only problem was...Josh wasn't running. When Zach noticed, he stopped too. Soon enough though, Nathaniel wanted to race. I'm not sure how, but we actually ended up getting to school early. After dropping the boys, I came home, folded some laundry, and watched American Idol while speaking to a friend, playing Family Feud, and making their chart. I was sitting there having one of those days, when I decided I had to get out of the house before I started crying. I went for a walk.

As I left the house, I noticed a single dandelion, and had to run back in to get my camera. I locked up a second time, took some pictures, and went on my way. I walked up to the co-op to get some Quorn sausages for Josh. As I approached the store, I felt rain drops. I already felt like breaking into tears, so this was not good. I went in and asked the girl if they carried the sausages. She was bringing me to where they're kept when another employee asked her to do something. She told them what she was doing, and they thought she said prawn sausages...interesting mixture. They all laughed, but I was so in my own thoughts, I must have looked like a bitch, cuz I didn't even crack a smile. A couple of minutes later I did...but I felt like that wasn't good enough. I then noticed, as I was walking towards a different aisle, that it was the good looking guy that said prawn sausages. Oops. Oh well...I went to pick up some mussels, but when I looked at them, I decided against it. I paid for the sausages and came back to the house.

I decided I'd go to Starbucks, came upstairs with some things I had on the table, and to switch my shoes, and do my hair...and that's when I noticed this giant ugly bug. Now, he's flown from where I first saw him - on the floor by the door - to the chandelier, and now to my window. He's getting further and further away from the door. I know what you're thinking...open the window. But OF COURSE, they don't open. Now Toni has text me with a brilliant idea involving a cup and some paper. - I was freaking out too much to think rationally. - I will go try that, and may return very happy...or very stung. Hold please...

Back, and I am now thanking Toni for thinking rationally, while I was in a state of panic, bug gone...no sting....crisis averted. To Starbucks I go.

So my day turned around a little bit...but it wasn't right away. I got to Starbucks, he wasn't there, and they're still out of Earl Grey Tea. Dammit! I bought a skinny soy vanilla latte, and decided to sit outside in the...sort of sunshine. It was muggy, so it wasn't poking through the clouds, but it was still nice and warm. Well, before finishing my drink, I all of a sudden felt like I was going to be sick or pass out. I sat there for a bit, but then decided - stupidly - that I didn't want to pass out there. So I finished my drink, and walked to the car. Smart? No. Rather pass out in a car than be embarrassed when I pass out in front of people I see almost daily? Idiot. Anyway, I walked to the car, and I guess the little bit of a breeze that I got while I walked helped a little, but I still wasn't feeling great. I got in the car, and I drove back to the house. You know when you're driving, but you're just going by routine...you're not really paying attention to the roads, and you aren't sure how you got somewhere. Well that's kinda what it was like for me. Although, I thought that as I was driving, so I was trying to pay attention...but I was just out of it. When I got back, I sat in the driveway in the car for a bit, just listening to the radio because "Viva La Vida" had come on. When it finished, and half way through what I think was a Justin Bieber song, I turned the radio off, and got out of the car. There sat the female duck I saw the day before. I began taking pictures of her, and eventually went inside.

I didn't have a lot of time before I had to head out to get the boys, so I downloaded my pictures, and then walked up to the school. I spoke to Tina for a bit, and then brought Nathaniel and Zach back to the house. Josh had football.

When we arrived, I made dinner while the two played outside. Nathaniel decided he didn't want to be outside anymore, and came in. That created a bit of a meltdown for Zach, but I sorted it out, and the two of them played Wii instead. After a while, my Uncle had showed up with Josh. I was peeling carrots, and stopped to make him a cup of tea. He had to leave soon after, but it was nice to see him. Zach came in to see if he could help me cook, but by then, everything was done. I set the table, and served the boys. I ate mine when I had the chance, between getting their seconds, and their fruit. After dinner, I made us all some hot chocolate, mine was a mocha, and while we were drinking that, and I was cleaning up, Heloise came home.

I finished cleaning, then sat on the couch to show Nathaniel a picture of Puddy, but his ride to Judo showed up before I got to it. He and Josh left, and I showed the pic to Zach. Zach had been asking me to play, so after looking at some pics, and watching Ben 10 - him so scared that he was cuddled up to my arm - we turned it off, and went into the playroom. We played the dragon game we had played before going to Canada, and then, looking at the huge cardboard box in the middle of the room, I asked Zach if I could cut into it tomorrow. He asked why, and I said for a surprise. He said no, so I said ok. He then asked what I meant, how would I cut into it. I told him I was thinking of making him a castle. Well...that was the end of the dragon game. We began by drawing a door, and then the mail slots and the window. I cut those two things out, - the window while Zach was in the bath - and I will do the door tomorrow.

When Zach came back, I told him it was time for me to go up to bed. I knew Heloise would be trying to get him to go up soon anyway, so I grabbed a cup of hot water for my tea, and came up. I had just got my pyjamas on, when there was a knock at my door. It was Zach. He wanted to know what I was doing, and then wanted to know if he could come in. I said yes. Heloise called him, but he didn't listen. Much like when she was trying to have a conversation with him while the two of us were playing. He told me he wanted to speak to my Mom with me online, but she wasn't on yet, and he was called again. I sent him out, shut my door, and went to have my 3 pieces of dark chocolate. I was just finishing the 1st piece, when another knock came. It was Zach asking if he could come in. I told him to hang on, and he said he had a surprise for me. I heard his parents calling him, and that's when he asked if he could just leave it outside my door. I opened the door to see him standing there with a power cord. He placed it on the ground, and as I was asking him where he got it, Tim called him again, so he ran off. I now have power cord...ok.

Now I'm in bed, talking to my brother, and watching American Idol. I'll be asleep in moments. Good Night xx