Day 198

Some days you get out of bed, and you just know that what's to come...is not going to be good. Today, was one of those days for me.

When my alarm went off at 6:30, I was sure it had already been off once. I listened for voices to make sure no one was downstairs yet, guessed I was wrong, and reset my alarm for 15 more minutes of sanity. Once that was up, I got out of bed, and was getting ready when I could feel that I wasn't in the best of moods.

I went downstairs and got the boys breakfast. They were rude right away, and that did not help my mood. I could feel myself getting angry, which made me even angrier cuz I hate the way I act when I'm angry. - If that's not a predicament, I don't know what is. -

Once the boys were all fed, I sat down to eat my breakfast, and drink my tea. The boys and I did homework, and Nathaniel aggravated me with a balloon. I asked him not to play with it in the house (because they always end up hitting this one chandelier and get in trouble), and as soon as Heloise came down, he asked her if he could. I was furious! I stuck to my guns and said "If I just told you you couldn't, why would you turn around and ask your mom?" Luckily she backed me up. Unfortunately Josh was backing Nathaniel up which was just putting me in a worse mood.

When they were all ready to go, the 4 of us headed out the door. Now, because Nathaniel constantly loses things, we had to check the Beast for his drink cup. It wasn't there, so I closed the door and locked the car. Things were about to get worse. Zach began his daily ritual of winging. He of course, didn't want to walk. He was 10 feet behind us as usual, moaning away, and I had to keep stopping to tell him to walk in front so I could see him. When we got to the 2nd path, he wanted to walk the long way. As I do every day, I explained that because he takes so long from the house through the first path, we never have time to walk the long way. We then heard more moaning from him as we continued through the 2nd path, and to school. By this time it was raining quite a bit, so Nathaniel and Josh got to go in right away. Zach's class didn't, so we stood...and we waited. When they finally opened the doors to his classroom, and I saw him go through, I headed back to the house.

I knew I had some time, so I came up to get my computer, and wrote some long overdue e-mails. Heloise (who has a study week), went next door for coffee, and I began catching up on TV. When she got back, the two of us went into Colchester. We went into the banks quickly before an appointment she had, and when she went off to that, I went looking for a birthday card. I came out with about 7 different cards. Guess I won't need to buy some again for a while. I then went over to Debenhams to try and find a sweater for my brother. They didn't have it. I walked swiftly to HMV, ignored the bum that said hi to me, by pretending I was just too focused on the text I was sending to hear him, and walked into the store to get what I wanted. "2012" is finally out here! On my way to the cash, I found some Twilight socks. Any of you that know me, know that #1 it's hard for me to turn down socks of any funky kind...and #2 I love Twilight. I had to buy them! And so I did. I met up with Heloise in Starbucks, and we got out drinks. We sat outside as it had finally stopped raining, and wasn't too cold out. I drank mine and immediately felt sick. I didn't tell Heloise, in hopes that it would just pass. I wasn't feeling right at all when we got up to do some more shopping. We went to the 2nd floor of the Gap and I was feeling terrible. I was super hot and wasn't sure I was going to be able to remain standing for much longer, or hold in my breakfast. It was not a nice feeling at all. I was right though, that feeling eventually passed. We finished looking around the stores though, and when we got in the car, it took everything in me to keep my eyes open. In fact when Heloise ran into the post office, I closed them for a little while.

We arrived home, I wrote some cards and caught up on Amazing Race. It was my plan to go to the movies with Toni to see "Bounty Hunter", so when my Uncle called to see if we wanted pizza, I said no. Just before I was about to get ready to go out, Toni text me saying she was sorry but she really wasn't feeling well and didn't think she should go. Damn. No popcorn dinner for me :( I told Heloise, and asked if there was a pizza shop around that would deliver. She told me she wasn't sure, but that she thought there would be plenty anyway.

Not long after, my Aunt and Uncle arrived with the boys and the pizza. There was definitely enough, and after eating the same amount I would have at home, I feel terrible :( I should have stopped at 2 slices. I got so full so fast. I was then almost asleep on the table. I waited until everyone was finished, and I helped clear up. But the second that was all done, I apologized for being so rude and explained how tired I was. I had to come upstairs. I jumped in the shower, quickly as I could, I finished typing this, I'm going to check my Facebook, and then I'll be asleep in the blink of an eye. Good Night xx

Oh and did I mention - I was so cold earlier, I had 2 hoodies on! How crazy is that?