Day 196

It's 7:15, and I'm in bed. I'm looking forward to catching up on some sleep tonight. I've been yawning pretty much all day, and my eyes are itchy and sleepy.

There was a knock at my door this morning. My first instinct was WHYYYYYY!!!!!!! It's so early! But soon after, I realized it was my Dad, and that made it ok. Haha...that's terrible. Anyway, I got up and ready, and at 8 o'clock, my Uncle came to pick us up. We dreadfully, headed to the airport. I couldn't keep my eyes open in the car, but I also couldn't really fall asleep. I was asleep at certain points, but could still hear the conversation in the car, so I guess it just wasn't a deep sleep. I was in too much pain between my neck and my shoulder for that.

We got to the airport in plenty of time, but the terminal was packed, so my Uncle dropped my Dad and I before he went to park. We got my Dad all checked in, and then met up with my Uncle for a coffee. I could hardly sit there with a straight face. Tears kept filling my eyes. When it was time for me to say goodbye, I found it very hard. Even though I know I'll see him 2 weeks from today, I wanted to be getting on the plane with him. I told him I didn't want to stay here. I said it, even though I knew very well that there was nothing either of us could do about that. I know that's not fair, but I had to get it out. He went through security, and tears streamed down my cheek. I decided I should suck it up, as my Uncle was standing there, and I figured he probably wouldn't know how to handle a young lady who was crying uncontrollably. We walked to the car, and I got in while he went to pay. On the way home, I was texting with Toni and my Uncle and I had a few good conversations. When we got back, no one else was home. My Uncle came in for a tea, and waited for my cousin to get home before he left. I'm not sure if he was really waiting around to ask her if she needed help running Josh to swimming, or if he was just waiting around cuz he didn't think I should be alone...either way, it was nice of him.

When Heloise did get back, she was with Zach, and he was asleep. After he opened his eyes we asked him if he'd want to go see "How to Train Your Dragon" with me. He had said earlier this morning that he didn't want to, but I thought he'd change his mind. He didn't. We sat down and watched the trailer together, and he seems to like that, but still doesn't want to see the movie. I think it's because Nathaniel wasn't going. When it got to the end of the preview though, he said "SEE! 3D! I hate 3D!" I said "You hate 3D? Why?" and his answer was, "The glasses always fall off me". I told him that was fine, and that I would just go with Josh. Well when Josh got home, that all changed. He decided he didn't want to go either. That upset me, but there was nothing I could do about it. The boys were talking about how I didn't look upset about my Dad leaving, or teary. I told them there were certain things I kept from them.

I was talking to Toni, and she was going to Chelmsford. Josh and I decided we'd go with her. She picked us up, we got a Starbucks, and walked around some shops. I think Josh ended up tiring Toni out with all his talking. Why do I think this? Because on our way home she asked me how I was still sane. I laughed and told her I had no idea. She dropped us off, and I went into the family room to see what was going on. Zach was watching Pirates of the Caribbean. He asked me if we could watch the Goonies, and I told him that we would after I washed my hair. When I came back down, I heard he was watching Spiderman. I told him it was one of my favourites, but when I walked into the room, I realized he was watching the cartoon. Ew. I told him I thought he had been watching the real version. He told me he'd never seen it, and asked Heloise if the two of us could watch it. She said yes, but then we couldn't find it in their DVD collection. I went and got my computer, and the two of us sat there watching it on my laptop. We watched until dinner. It was a very nice meal, and for dessert, I had a banana. As soon as I finished that, I grabbed all of my things and came up to bed. I was ready in no time, and got under my covers. Now I'm catching up on Idol, and am going to speak to my Mom for a bit before I fall asleep. My eyes will be shutting on their own very soon. Good Night xx