Day 162

Well, with the morning I've had, it's a wonder I'm in such a good mood. Honestly. I'm not sure why, but I'm thinking nothing will bring me down today. And a little extra bonus that's helping to keep my mood the way it is - Giant snowflakes outside.

After getting ready, liking my outfit and deciding I wouldn't let anyone phase me today, I headed downstairs. Well...the second I saw Josh, there wasn't a "hello", it was a "7:20 and there's Maija". I almost lost it. I was so angry. I asked him why he did that and told him that when he does things like that he puts me in a bad mood right away. I later had a chat with him about how he analyzes every little thing I do. From the amount of time I take in the washroom, to my watching the olympics...it's getting on my nerves, and I made sure he knew that. I explained how hard I'm trying with him, and how sometimes he makes me feel like nothing I do is good enough. I hope he understood. He couldn't look at me cuz he hates getting in trouble, so I think I got through to him.

I made my breakfast, they had already had theirs, and I got Zach a plum that he didn't finish. I sat down to eat. When they all came back down from doing teeth and hair, Nathaniel read on the couch, Josh read a bit to me, then on his own, and I read some Mr. Men books to Zach. We were ready super early so I asked Nathaniel to get his Diary of the Wimpy Kid book, and I read some of that to him. Josh asked how my trip to London was.

It was pouring rain, so I had scratched the capris and boots idea (even though I said I wouldn't let the rain ruin my planned outfit), and I went for my jeans and wellington boots instead. It still looked nice, I think. We went out the door and jumped in the car. They were early to school but headed straight in because of the weather. Josh made a comment about being early for once, and off he went. I took some money for their lunches to the office and then drove home to look for directions to the hospital.

After searching for what seemed like way too long, I eventually made it out of the house. I found the hospital just fine...it was no problem. It was what was to come that began the unfortunate events. I found a parking spot, and it was free parking, SCORE! I went in and filled out the form I needed to, and then sat and waited. I was trying not to get nervous, and was thinking of how much worse other people have it. A blood test was nothing. I told myself I wouldn't let myself cry, I'd stay calm and just get it done. My name was called, and I followed the nurse into the room. I put my stuff down on the chair, and as I took a seat I decided to give her a heads up. "Just to let you know, they normally have a tough time finding a vein because I hate needles". She said that was fine, and I sat down. She found a vein and stuck the needle in...she couldn't get any blood...she had to try again. She found a different vein, same arm, and stuck the needle in. Still, no blood. She said she'd have to go get someone else and see if they could get anything, while apologizing for having to poke me more than once. As soon as she left the room, I felt my face go green. I got super light headed and thought I was going to be sick. GREAT! She came back with the other lady, and I was not feeling well at all. The 2nd lady approached me and I considered not telling her, but I know what fainting feels like, and I was certainly on the verge of doing it. I looked up and said "If I'm not feeling well...should I let you know?" She looked at me and asked if I felt light headed and told me to put my head down towards my knees. I did that while she sent the first nurse to get me some water. Nothing was really helping. After a few sips of water, she thought it might be a good idea for me to lie down. HOW EMBARRASSING! I kept apologizing and told them that normally I cry, and get it over with, that I've never had this happen before. - I only just remembered I almost fainted the last time I was in the hospital for my shoulder. - She told me not to worry, and I didn't have to be sorry. She picked up my things and moved me across the hall to the room with the bed. She told me to lie down for a bit, and once I had some water and was feeling a little better, she looked for a vein in my right arm. She found one, and put the needle in. I could tell nothing was coming out. She was rubbing down the vein, I'm guessing to try and get blood flowing. What seemed like way too long later, I was finally finished, but still not feeling great. I sat up, and she asked me to lie down. I did for a bit, and when I felt just embarrassed enough, I sat up. She asked if I was sure I felt ok, and told me I could sit there for a bit before leaving. So I did. After a while, I got up, grabbed my stuff, apologized again - that's when she told me not to worry and to trust her, she's dealt with much worse. I was still embarrassed. I collected my things and left the room.

When I got to the hospital doors, I saw snowflakes. It put an instant smile on my face. I didn't bother putting my umbrella up. I stepped into the cool air which helped my body temperature go back to normal, and I strolled my way to the car. When I got in, I sat there for a minute, not wanting to pull away until I was sure, I was feeling better. I eventually left the car park, and found my way to the Colchester shopping area. I parked there, and walked through Williams and Griffiths. I looked in MAC, but the new releases aren't out til the 4th, so I kept my hands off my wallet, and left. I put my umbrella up, and walked through NEXT hoping to find some long sleeve shirts. ...Nothing... I walked out the other side, and over to Starbucks where they told me they knew how to make a London Fog...but I think they lied. I picked up an England mug, and saw one for Edinburgh! There are tons of different ones! I also got the London Starbucks card I've been searching for since I gave mine away in Winnipeg. I left there and went to Paperchase where I bought a couple of things, and my umbrella broke for the 2nd time. I guess there's no fixing it now :( It was no longer snowing by the way, just rain. I'm definitely not one of those people that carry umbrellas in snow. I left, paid for parking, and drove home.

When I arrived, I made myself a salad, sat down, and wrote some cards. Time passed quickly, and soon enough Heloise was home. - I wasn't expecting her - We agreed that she'd take Nathaniel and Zach to swimming, and I'd pick Josh up (as his football was cancelled), and the two of us would go to the garage to get the light fixed. I drove up to the post office first, and then met Heloise at the school. The boys came out, I took their bags, and Josh, and we headed back to the car. I asked Josh if after the garage he would want to go to Starbucks. He said yes, and followed it with a "Why do you want to take me to Starbucks?" I simply said "Because I feel like it", and that was that. He asked me to turn the music up, and off we went. The guy changed the light as we stood there, and all I could think of was the fact that my mom knew how to do what he was doing. I wish I had of paid more attention so that I could have impressed Heloise and Tim. Oh well. It didn't take the guy long, and after correcting his assumption of me being American, we talked about the trip to New York he and his girlfriend are taking. I paid, and Josh and I left. When we got to Braintree, we had a nice talk on the way to Starbucks. Josh told me all about the lesson he had about brail today. He's such a sweetie. I bought him a hot chocolate, and got my tea, and we decided we better drink them in the car. I drove home, and as I came onto the High Street, Heloise pulled up behind me. Guess our little trip wouldn't be a secret. When we parked in the driveway Nathaniel peered in the window. Then he asked where Josh and I had been. I said we'd gone out, and noting what was in my hand he went "They did go to Starbucks!!" I knew I should have finished it, and left the cup in the car. He asked Josh what he got to drink, and that was the end of it. We all went inside.

Heloise didn't need any help with dinner, so I sat down with the boys to watch the Hockey game. I answered a lot of questions about rules and such, and then placed my "dinner order" with Zach while he told me what he did or didn't have in his kitchen set. Nathaniel clearly got bored and went to play Wii, and Josh went on the computer. I enjoyed the game. I clearly hoped for a better result, but I already knew the end result. I paused the last period for dinner, ate, and was full before I finished, so Josh finished what was on my plate. I turned the game back on, then made hot chocolate for Nathaniel and Zach, and then sat down to finish the game when the boys went up to bed. Now I'm watching Ski jump, and can't wait for Glee to start :D I'm going to sign off of here now, speak to my Mom, and make a mocha. Good Night xx