Day 131

What a morning! Is anyone else sick of hearing me complain? Cuz I sure am. Don't get me wrong, the boys were really well behaved this morning. That was great. I was definitely having a better morning than I've had recently. It wasn't until we realized at 8:40, that it was raining and Heloise suggested I take the car, that things got hectic. We were driving up the high street around 8:47, traffic was bad and I had to drop Heloise, and return for Zoe to drop her and the boys at school all before 9.

I somehow accomplished it, but my heart was racing as I carried Zoe in my arms, had Zach holding my other hand, and had Josh and Nathaniel following closely behind. Poor Josh, trying to put something back in his bag after handing me his guitar money, dropped both his football and school bags on the ground. He scooped them up with tears in his eyes. I appologized to him and told him to try and have a good day. Poor guy. I hate sending them off when they've had a hard morning. Even when it's their fault, I don't like seeing them upset. So today, when he had done nothing wrong, it was extremely hard. Zach's teacher could clearly see the stress in our faces as she was saying "It's ok Auntie, you're not late, you're not late...we just opened the doors early because of the rain". Thank goodness! I dropped the two little ones off, and with my heart still racing, I walked up to the office to explain the guitar money fiasco. The secretary is so nice, she understood what Heloise was missing and made a note of it. - It's a confusing situation if you don't know what's going on with books and such, even I don't know...so I'll leave it at that -

I walked back to the car, and drove home to change. Once I did that, and thought about Jerry, and how I saw him this morning but he wasn't there now...and what if he is a female and is laying eggs (Thanks for that Aunt Cindy)...I got my shoes on, grabbed my rain coat and headed out for my run. I decided, with the way I was feeling, out of breath because of a cold, cold because of the rain, and my heart still racing from stress...that I would cancel my plans to wash my own hair, and shorten my exercise stint by just running up to the hair dressers. Kill 2 birds with one stone. Well, when I got to the hair dressers, I looked at my phone and had only been running for a little over 6 minutes. Not good enough I told myself. I kept running around the corner, and up the street I normally go to. I did 10 minutes, and then walked quickly back to the hair dressers. They washed my hair, and the lady was much better than the one that normally does it. - I'll be asking for her next time for sure. - And I ran home. On my way back my rib started to hurt :( I only ran for 5 minutes. A little disappointing. When I got home my rib was hurting and I know my limits. I didn't want to do anything to it on the wii fit, so I just weighed myself in and that was that. What a failure! I really should have done more...but I just couldn't bring myself to today. You would think that I could just over come it, considering I'm upset with myself...but I really have no energy right now. So I jumped in the shower, got ready, and came downstairs for my cereal. I was going to watch Grey's, but I started talking to my brother and still am. I have to go pick Heloise up in about 25 minutes, so I won't have time to get through the episode. It will have to wait.

After I pick her up and drop her at the hair dressers, I'll go up to Braintree and try to relax for a few minutes at Starbucks. Then it will be time to come back, pick up Nathaniel and Zach, get Nathaniel dinner in under 15 minutes, and have him ready for Colchester United before my Uncle gets here to pick him up. Can I go back to sleep yet?

I seriously worry about myself sometimes. I just got back from Freeport...and have no idea what roads I took. It was a way I've never been before...and I was driving! I have to go get the boys and make dinner, but I'll tell you about the drive later.

So I haven't had much time to sit and type. I've been up and down like crazy, and have just finished cleaning my room/packing for Bristol, and we might not even be going now. UGH! Anyway I went to Braintree this afternoon after dropping Heloise, and for some reason, I couldn't bring myself to relax at Starbucks. My mind was still racing, and so was my heart. I decided I wanted to go to Bench to get some shoes I had decided I wanted about a week ago. I looked in a couple of stores on the way, and eventually got to Bench. I walked in and the guy told me it was 25% off from 12 til 4, and it was about 2 when I walked in! SCORE! I got my shoes, and some underwear and tried on a few other things, but felt rushed so I didn't buy any of that. On my drive home I was thinking of how silly it was of me to only buy one pair of shoes! Why didn't I get the same in the other colour? AND the boots? They were only 18 pound, and then 25% off! WHAT WAS I THINKING? Well...clearly I wasn't, but I was certainly thinking about it the whole way home. IDIOT! And that's why I have no idea how I got back, or what roads I took. Scary.

Oh my goodness...will there ever be a day that I get to sleep in? I just found out we're leaving here at 7:30 tomorrow, which means I have to be up at 6:30 :| UGH!

Anyway, better finish this off quick so I can get at least 6 hours of sleep. When I got home from Freeport...however I did it...I only had about 5 minutes to sit down. Then I had to go pick Zach and Nathaniel up. I stood out in the rain waiting for Zach's teacher to let him out, and then the 3 of us walked to the car. When we got home, I made Nathaniel's dinner as quick as possible. He ate, and Heloise came in. I sat down for a minute to drink my Mocha, but before I got too far into it, Heloise asked if I could head out to get Josh. She had to wait for the carpenter. I jumped back into the car and drove to the school. I waited for his football to finish, and when he came out we walked back to the car. He was filthy. Happy because he got to play in nets :) But filthy.

On our way home, some muppet was driving way too close to me, and hit my side mirror. Luckily Heloise's car has mirrors that fold in, so aside from a scratch that may or may not have been there already, there wasn't much damage. I was angry though. The rain wasn't helping my mood in any way. The carpenter arrived as we pulled in, and I made Josh and Zach some dinner. Once the carpenter was gone, Heloise ran to the store to get our dinner, and when she got back there was some chaos with poor Josh. Something that wasn't really his fault at all got him in trouble. I know it was mostly because of his reaction to the situation, and I explained that to him later...but I still felt bad for him. In the end he went off to Cubs, and we sat around waiting to see if we were going to Bristol or not. After speaking to my Mom on Skype, I went downstairs to watch "Bride Wars" and "The Wedding Date" with Heloise and Tim. Well...Heloise, and Tim when he'd occasionally look up. I decided if I was going to get any better, I should get to bed so I could have a decent sleep. As I was changing, I could hear Heloise coming up the stairs. She was on the phone. She knocked on my door, and when I answered, she informed me that we are now leaving for Bristol at 7:30 tomorrow morning. That being said...Good Night xx