Day 140

The knocks didn't come til 10:30 today. And at least there were knocks! The only thing is, when Zach knocks...he doesn't listen. He just keeps knocking. I asked who it was, I tried saying come in, I even tried just saying "Yes?", and I got no response. No speaking response that is. Nope, I just got the continuous knocking for what seemed like 5 minutes straight. Then, Tim's sister in-law came up to tell her son and Zach to leave me alone. I dragged myself out of bed, opened the door, and told Zach I was telling him he could come in. "Oh! I didn't hear you." was his response. He looked at me, said hi, and turned to walk away. Both Shelly and I went, "Is that it?" It sure was. He knocked for 5 minutes, just to say hi. What a funny little monster.

Well...time to wake up I guess. I sat in bed and went on my computer. I waited until the craziness died down a bit, and ventured out to get my fruit. Only long enough to chop it up and say hi to everyone that was down there...then I came back up to finish speaking to my brother. Eventually I decided it was time to get ready. And so I did. It was really nice though. I played my music, and danced like a fool while doing my make up. I took my time. Seriously, a couple of hours. It was great. In the middle of doing my eye shadow, there was a knock at my door. Zach wanted to tell me how amazing the cake was. I told him to show me, so the two of us went downstairs and took a look. I soon returned to finish getting ready, and rocking out. Eventually I made my way back downstairs, and sat with Nathaniel and Zach to watch some Spongebob. Josh came in, and then one of Nathaniel's friends arrived. Nathaniel had asked me about Fantastic 4 - Rise of the Silver Surfer. He wanted to know who I played, and if you could see it was me. I told him no, but explained I was in other shows that you could see up close. He asked to see. I came up to get my laptop, and waited for the show to load. By the time I came up on the screen, none of them were really interested anymore.

Ah yes, before I go much further, I should tell you all, despite my efforts to have Jerry removed, she is still very much alive, kicking, and in the vacinity. No one seems to care that there could soon be thousands of little Jerry's running around my bathroom. Awesome. I must say though, I was worried the other day when I thought she had died. She was looking a little darker than usual and not moving. But when I returned a little while later, she had gone back into the blind hole, and she has been seen time and time again since then.

The boys played some Wii, and I spoke to Nathaniel's friends' mom. It was then time for the birthday party. I hadn't planned on going. That didn't seem to matter. Nathaniel wanted me to be there. We all jumped in the cars and headed to the swimming pool for the Spongebob themed party. - I must say, Tim's cake was very impressive. Perhaps not as impressive as Archie's moms...but apparently whenever the two party share, Sally is bound to win the cake off. She is very talented. She reminds me of my Mom, only no one could beat my Mom in awesomeness. We got to the hall, and the kids began to poor in. I stood in the pool area for a bit, but then decided to join my Uncle and Aunt on the couches in the lounge area. After about an hour, they all came back in for food. Once that was gulped down, it was time for pass the parcel. As they were doing that, parents began showing up, and that's where the party ended. They collected their cake and their goody bags, and left. Again...leaving with the slice of cake in the napkin, and the boys had yet to open their gifts. So weird.

We cleaned up and came home. I watched Nathaniel open his gifts while drinking a cup of tea, and then decided to come up to bed. Now I'm all comfy, I'll be asleep soon. Good Night xx

Day 139

"That's Maija, she's not very nice". Is not the first sentence you want to hear in the morning. Yet that's what I woke up to after 6 hours of sleep. Zach ran into my room at 8:30 this morning. I looked up, said "Zach No!" and had flashbacks of 2 weekends ago. He kept talking, but I was just trying to go back to sleep. He closed the door, grabbed his cousin of the same age, and came back. He spoke some more, and I told him he wasn't supposed to be in my room. His cousin asked who I was, and as they left the room Zach said "That's Maija, she's not very nice". Nice guy. I called after him, but he was gone. I got up, shut my door, and tried to go back to sleep...but that didn't happen.

After a few minutes of getting angry at my eyes for not staying shut, I rolled over and picked up my laptop. I searched for Desperate Housewives, and realized I'm all caught up. So I watched Human Target instead. After a while, I decided to go down and get some fruit and some juice. The house was quiet! Everyone had gone out! There was a note on the counter telling me they'd all gone to my Uncle's for a swim. That was fine with me. I grabbed my breakfast and brought it upstairs. After spending a little more time in bed, I put some music on, and started getting ready. Heloise came up to ask if I wanted to go to Cambridge with them. They were going to a pub for lunch, then the airplane museum, and then splitting up. I decided I would stay behind and take a walk. It was a beautiful day, and I had yet to take pictures around here. So that's exactly what I did.

I grabbed a stool, stuffed in a bag, took my camera, and walked out the door. I started at the front of the house, then walked through the paths to the park where a soccer game was being played, and not too much later, I made my way back through the paths and to the church. It was really nice. Just me and my camera, and some super nice scenery. I was enjoying myself. It was a little cold so I kept my mitts on, luckily though, I was still able to push the buttons on the camera.

I came home, and as I walked towards the house, my camera began to die. Good timing. I put the battery in the charger, and made my way downstairs with my computer and a movie. I sat on the couch, and began to watch "My Best Friends Girl". I was cold, as usual, so when my Dad called, I decided I would pause the movie, and make some hot chocolate. I spoke to him and my Mom for a bit, and then went back to watching my movie while speaking to my Mom on msn. Before I got to the end, Tim came home with the 3 youngest children, and his brother, and his wife. I turned the movie off. I'll have to watch the rest if I get some alone time tomorrow.

I spent a lot of time downstairs tonight. I watched "Drop Dead Fred" - a classic! Then "Get Smart" came on. I tried to watch that, but don't think I managed to hear a single sentence. Heloise came home and put 2 sleepy boys in their beds, and then came down to speak with everyone. The guys went to get Indian, and I made myself some popcorn for dinner. I ate that while chatting online, and "watching" the movie. Then "Bedtime Stories" came on :) Tim and I had a small argument about Adam Sandler, luckily his brother was siding with me. I could hardly keep my mouth shut the more Tim insulted Adam Sandler's movies. How can you judge a movie you've only seen 10 minutes of? And he probably didn't hear any of it in that time span! He was saying "Punch Drunk Love" was terrible. I'm guessing it's because it's a movie you have to concentrate on, and that's not something you get to do in this house. Tim can't sit still long enough. Anyway, I enjoyed my movie, and the guys eventually played Cricket on Wii for a while so Heloise watched with me. She seemed to like it as well. That finished and during the credits, Tim began insulting Journey. REALLY?!?!?! I said how good the song that was playing was, and then I shut my mouth. It wasn't worth it.

A few minutes passed, and I decided, as I was freezing and getting sleepy, to come up to my room. I got ready, and crawled into bed. I spoke to my Sister on Skype, and the two of us watched a couple of episodes of "Aliens in America" together. We're supposed to try to do it tomorrow as well. It was nice :) Once that finished, I decided it was time to type this. Now that I'm finished, I'll sign out of everything, and be asleep very shortly. I'm hoping to get more than 6 hours of sleep tonight..but I'm not holding my breath. Maybe i should move my bedside table in front of my door...hmmm. Anyway, off I go. Good Night xx

PS I keep getting this crazy sharp pain in my head. I'm hoping it'll be gone by tomorrow.

Day 138

Another good day :D
I was sitting downstairs, pretty wired after numerous cups of caffeine throughout the day...but when my computer died, I decided I'd come upstairs to the warmth of my room, and the sound of just my music and the clicking of my keyboard. Now that I'm comfy in bed, my energy is beginning to drain.

My day began as it normally does. A little slower getting out of bed these last couple of days...but when you're so tucked in, and know the cold is waiting right outside your door...waiting to smack you in the face the minute you step out...getting out of bed can be hard! I've been rolling over, turning my heater up, checking my e-mail, and then forcing myself up and out. Today I went down the stairs and into the kitchen to get my fruit, to find that Tim was leaving early. While chopping banana, apple, mango and getting blueberries, I was interrupted numerous times by little boys that wanted their next course. I got it all for them, and when I thought I was finally finished, I went to sit down and eat. The second my bum hit the chair, Nathaniel asked for water. I thought of my Mom and how she says she must have a buzzer attached to hers, because we always wanted something just as she sat...Well, I got everything else from her, so why wouldn't I have the buzzer as well? Anyway, I was just about to stand, and thought HANG ON A SECOND! Why can't YOU get it? I figured Zach gets his own when he wants it, so I calmly said...You can get it. "Fine" he said in a whiney tone...and off he went.

We worked our way through home work today, and then, I told Nathaniel he had to open the Michael Jackson CD's he got for his birthday, so that I could listen to them while I cleaned later. Well, we opened them, and I popped one in right away. We then had a mini dance party as I showed them the moves to "Blame It On the Boogie". We were having fun. I didn't want it to stop, but unfortunately, they had to go to school. Josh started panicking thinking we were going to be late, but it was no later than normal...well ok, maybe a few minutes later, but certainly not as late as they've been before. We arrived at the school, and weren't the first people there this time, but we still had to wait for the bell.

I walked home, and when I arrived, I spoke to my brother, and wrote an important letter. I then put MJ back on, turned it up, did some dancing , some vacuuming, cleaning and some laundry. When I was finished with all that, I got changed and did my Wii Fitness Coach work out. It was good cuz I asked my trainer to incorporate weights in today, and I really felt it. Nearing the end of my work out, some of MJ's old songs like "Heal the World" and "You Are Not Alone" came on, and really brought me back. I started reminiscing and couldn't stop smiling. After that I had to give Super Mario Brothers a try. I had a bunch of other stuff on my mind though, and was worried about the time, so I died twice, and turned it off knowing if I got too into it, I wouldn't have time for a Starbucks.

I showered, and headed out. It was cold. But the good kind of cold. My body was absolutely fine, it was just my hands that were freezing. I walked into Starbucks, and it was pretty packed. The girl at the counter asked if I was having my usual. AWESOME! She wrote it down and swiped my card. She looked at the price of my drink and asked if the card was registered. I knew I forgot something! Dammit. No worries though...I'm so well known at that Starbucks, that she said she'd take my syrup and soy charges off anyway. SCORE! I waited for my drink to come up on the bar, and as I walked to a table, I glanced outside...IT WAS SNOWING! I immediately scratched the sitting inside idea, made my way through a group of people too afraid to go outside, and opened the doors with a huge smile on my face. I can tell you right now, I was one of very few people smiling...in fact, I may have been the only one. A few people were running for cover. Others had umbrellas up, and a couple even looked disgusted! Weirdos! Anyway, I walked around with my grin from ear to ear, admiring the little white specs that were falling onto my hair. By the time I got about half way around the circle, it had stopped. Damn. Oh well, it was enough to make my day. I headed back to Starbucks and wrote a letter. Then it was time to head home so that I wouldn't be late for the boys.

I drove back, still smiling, and when I pulled in the driveway I saw that Heloise was already home. I walked in and we talked before she said she'd go get the boys. She misses picking them up. So while she did that, I made Nathaniel's rice. Yuck. After that was done, I went up and got my crosswords and glasses. I sat on the couch, wrapped in the fleece, and began to work my brain. This new book I got is tough! But I love it anyway. Heloise returned with Nathaniel and Zach. Although I was listening to music, I knew what was coming, so I got up to turn it off. That's when the two of them ran in to say hi, and Zach asked if we could watch Narnia. He doesn't like me using the TV for anything. We sat together and I worked on my crosswords, while he asked thousands of questions about the movie. My Uncle came to pick Nathaniel up for soccer, and Heloise went to get Josh from his. When he came in I got some cuddles, and he "helped" with my crossword. After thinking hard, he came up with the answer for a cricket clue. The 3 of us continued to watch Narnia, and soon after came dinner. Then Josh got ready for Cubs and soon after Tim got home, Josh headed out. Nathaniel came home and played some wii after giving me some cuddles. Then they were supposed to be going to bed, but because Tim's brother, wife and kids were coming over tonight, Heloise was a little more lenient. They stayed up talking to me, and then asked if they could have a hot chocolate. I made one for each of us. Zach did his normal eat the marshmallows, and leave the hot chocolate, but it was my mint one, so I wasn't too worried about wasting it. I find it sickly if you drink too much. Anyway, they drank those, and Zach jumped around for a bit while Heloise, Tim and I sat in the family room and Nathaniel played wii. Eventually they went up to bed, and Tim picked Josh up. He asked if he could have hot chocolate, and made it himself. The milk over flowed, and he spilled some on the floor as well...but the point is, he tried. He sat and "watched" the end of How I Met Your Mother with me, although he spoke through most of it, and then watched the beginning of Friends before getting called up to bed.

I watched some more TV, and spoke to some people online. Tim came down, and I flicked Twilight on. It was at the exact part it's at everytime he's in the room. The only scene he's watched is them playing baseball, and it drives him nuts. I laughed for a good 5 minutes. OH YEAH! In between all this, Heloise came down to speak to me and told me what a fantastic job I'm doing with the boys, and she hopes that I don't want to leave because they don't want me to go anywhere anytime soon. How nice is that?!?! I almost started to cry when we started talking about me being home sick, but I held it back. She told me how brave she thinks I've been, knowing how close I am to my family she can only imagine what a hard decision it was to come here. It was a really nice conversation, and I'm glad we had it.

Once the boys were in bed, Tim's brother, wife and kids showed up. The kids were almost asleep so the youngest laid in his mom's arms, while the eldest laid on the couch waiting for someone to take him up to where he was sleeping. The wife and I spoke for a bit, and then she took the littlest upstairs. I watched the end of Twilight, and then, while speaking to people, my computer died. It was time for me to come upstairs. That's when I crawled into bed, and did the regular petville, farmville checks, and the conversations on MSN. I was thinking of watching Desperate Housewives as well...but it's now almost 12:20, and I am tired yet again. I'm going to speak to my Mom for a bit, and then drift off into what will hopefully be some good dreams. Good Night xx

Day 137

I came up at about 6:30...absolutely exhausted and falling asleep at the kitchen table. I thought I'd get things done early so I could sleep early. Well, it's now 7:20 and I have yet to accomplish anything really. So let's get started.

Up and ready, downstairs for breakfast. I got my fruit and attempted to stay out of Tim's way. The boys were really well behaved again today. I wonder if my talk with them worked. The one about thinking Heloise might decide to send me home if they don't listen to me. I wished Nathaniel a Happy Birthday and we got through the homework rather quickly. Heloise came downstairs and decided, because she had the day off, that she'd take them to school. They left, and I did some cleaning up. Then I walked up to Jazzercise. It was a really good class today. I felt it working, and I was sweating - which is always good when exercising - An hour later, I walked home.

I showered and cleaned, grabbed some juice, and Heloise made soup for the 3 of us. (Tim was working from home). I then went with her to do some grocery shopping for Nathaniel's birthday party. The most fun we had was in the pick and pay aisle. We were searching for different candies that would tie in with the Spongebob cake Tim's going to make. We got jelly drops for the jelly fish, and they'll have shoelace licorice tentacles. Skull gummies for the bottom of the ocean. Fat licorice tape sort of stuff that rolled up will look like Gary, we'll just put some antennas on it. Some bottles for the bottom of the ocean, and that's about it, because we couldn't find any shell gummies or anything. We left there, and by the time we got home and unpacked the groceries, it was time to get the boys. Heloise said she'd go, so I decided to go online for a bit. I was going to watch some of my shows then, but didn't think I'd get through an entire episode before they arrived, so instead, I spoke with an old friend.

When the boys got home, I actually heard Zach ask where I was. It was really nice. He came in and sat beside me and asked if we could put a DVD on. We put in Chronicles of Narnia. My Uncle and Aunt showed up, and the house began to get crazy. Nathaniel wanted to open his presents, but Tim was on a conference call so he was asked to wait. Then my Nan called to wish him a Happy Birthday. It was her 3rd time trying to get a hold of him. After he thanked her for his birthday money, he passed the phone back to me, and I spoke to her for a good 10 to 15 minutes. It was really nice. I miss her. Even though I'm in the same country. That's ridiculous isn't it? I can't believe I've only seen her twice since getting here. That needs to change. I hung up with her, and Nathaniel was playing his new Super Mario Bros for wii, so I went in to ask him if he wanted to open the gifts I got him. Of course he said yes. I got him 2 different books, and he seemed to be really excited about one of them. It's the Guinness World Record - Gamer's Edition Book. I got a huge hug and a thank you from him.

Josh and I had a nice conversation the couch, and I got to sit and talk to my Uncle about cars. It really felt like I was surrounded by family tonight. And that was awesome. I know that sounds crazy, because I'm always with family here...but for the first time in a long time, it felt like I was the boys cousin, and not just someone who tells them what to do, or what not to do. I was happy.

The boys had dinner, and then the grown-ups ate. Nathaniel blew out the candles on his Nintendo DS cake that I picked out for him, and then they headed off to Judo. The grown-ups had the better tasting chocolate cake. My Uncle then began to give me directions on how to get to Nathaniel's football tomorrow - I may have to take him if no one else is around - and as I was sitting there listening to him, I was drifting off. I felt like I was going to fall asleep. As soon as he finished, and gave me the map, I said good night, and came up to crawl into bed. Now I'm going to watch American Idol, I'll give you my comments, and will be going to bed soon after.

So here I am, watching the Dallas auditions. Where do I begin? 8 years later, and the girl they told to sue her voice coach is back. What is she thinking? Ugh. Neil Patrick Harris' sign comment made my day. Lloyd Thomas with the 2 daughters, he was good. People are going to love him I think. What a great personality. Aww I just got goosebumps. Yep, I like him. I really like Kimberly Carver's voice. She sang her own song. She's unique. I like it! Simon doesn't agree with me?!?!! Oh dear. How many times can one person wink? Dexter...you're DEFINITELY not the next American Idol...now leave. "That looked like it hurt" haha first time Randy's made me laugh. Aww I really like David. The one with Teretts. He has a great voice and is a cutie. I liked Toddrick - the guy that made the song about Idol. He's cute. Look at his eyes! Wow. Vanessa Johnston...the one in the pink and purple...I like her make up, but she can NOT carry a tune! Oh dear. I loved the flashback of the "Your horrible!" guy. I remember him. He was so bad. Christian Spear has a nice voice. She's the 16 year old that's an 8 year cancer survivor. And that's that for Dallas. Now I'm going to go talk to some people, and then sleep. Good Night xx

Day 136

Oh where does the time go? Ah yes, today 2 hours of it went to LINE DANCING! But I'm getting ahead of myself here. Let's rewind.

Out of bed and ready to go. I came down to have my cereal. - MY LAST BOWL OF CEREAL FOR THE REST OF MY STAY HERE! - I know, kind of a big deal! I was going to take it out of my diet at the beginning of next week, but considering I finished the box off today, I thought, what a perfect way to cut myself off. SO let's see what kind of withdrawal I have in the next few days.

The boys were having their breakfast, and you know how someone looks, and waits for you to screw up...just so they can point it out? Well that happened yet again today. Luckily though, I did not screw anything up. Nope, the person was making an assumption, and I in turn, made them look like the fool. I was quite proud of myself. I like to stick up for myself every now and then. It's that whole element of surprise thing. Make people think they can walk all over you, and then one day...WHAM! That's right! I do have something to say!

Anyways, got through the homework routine and out the door with plenty of time to spare. It was another cold walk today. Our hands were freezing. When I checked around 10, it was only 1 degree!!! I'm not going to lie though, I'm so warm right now while everyone else is freezing. Why? Because it's the beautiful cold us Canadians/non Vancouverites know. Anyway, when we arrived at the school, Josh remembered that he had guitar today. Only problem? The guitar was sitting in the breakfast room at home. After signing them up for parent/teacher interviews and hoping that I booked okay times, I walked home, got the guitar, and drove back. I dropped the instrument at the office, then double checked the interview times to see if I should make any changes, and although I'm sure something will be wrong with it...I left it and drove to the bank. I made an appointment to go back next week and open a new account. After driving home, I tossed some stuff in the house, grabbed a water and walked up to my newest activity.

I was first there, other than the instructor and her daughter, and I was excited! I spoke to them for a bit, and when they asked if I had any experience at all...I told them the only line dance I knew was the Electric Slide...and that's where my knowledge comes to a halt. She told me that was fine and that she didn't know that one, but knew many people that did. 2 hours and a few mistakes later I was finished my first class, and had a smile on my face. Some of the dances are crazy hard. I can do them as she's teaching you the steps, but as soon as she turns on the music and we speed it up...I'm a mess. Luckily I wasn't the only one to start today, and I was doing better than the other 2. For the Intermediate dances they'd sit out. I'd learn the steps, and then attempt it. If I knew once the music came on, that I couldn't do it, that's when I would watch from the side. The instructor seemed to be impressed with me, and everyone in the class was really nice. I'm looking forward to next week. We learned a dance to Jai Ho (FINALLY MOM!), Candy Man, and a few others. None that I can remember at this moment - they're all a bit of a jumble -...but I'm sure they'll come back to me individually next week.

I left there and walked home. I then did my 15 minutes with the Wii Fitness Coach, hopped in the shower, and headed out to Starbucks. I decided to go the way everyone else goes today. Thinking well, I did it last time no problem, I'm sure I can today. Well...with that in mind, it doesn't mean that you should try it without reading the signs. I ended up turning the wrong way, and having to turn around moments later. Oops. At first I was a little frustrated with myself, but then I thought about how everything happens for a reason, which lead me to think about a certain scene in Benjamin Button (That I won't describe in case you haven't seen it), and I thought who cares if it takes me a few minutes longer to get there. There's probably a reason.

I eventually arrived, got my tea, and drove home (my normal way), to write this and watch some TV shows I need to catch up on. Well...I've written this...but I don't have time to watch the shows as I have to leave to get the boys soon. I figure after my haircut (just a trim), and dinner tonight, I'll go up to my room and spend a couple of hours watching what needs to be watched. I'll then add to this blog :) Speak to you then.

Since we last spoke...or I last typed, I have accomplished a bit more. Still have yet to watch my TV Shows, but that's coming soon. I picked the boys up from school, and came home to make Nathaniel some dinner before Beavers. He complained about green pepper as Heloise showed up, and he didn't end up having to eat it. She drove him to Beavers, and I did a bit of a crossword while "watching" Scooby Doo with Zach. I HATE Scooby Doo. Always have, and always will.

I then drove to get my hair done. It was raining so I certainly didn't want to walk there. I showed up early, but she took me almost right away. Well, it's been washed, cut, blow dried (by 2 people), and flat ironed...and I don't think it's right :( I kept trying to get her to layer it properly, but I still don't think she ended up doing it the way I was hoping. There's only so many times you can say "Could you please cut it on an angle?" or "Could you cut these pieces a little shorter?" So I'm hoping after the next wash, it'll look alright. I paid, tipped, and left. I cannot believe the price of getting your hair cut here! I miss Danielle. She would have done it properly, and for the same price in dollars, as it was in pound. Sigh.

Anyway, I got home and Heloise had made a salad for me. It was delicious. I ate and watched her and Zach work on his reading and then play a bit. It was really nice. She took him up to bed, and I came up to watch my shows :D That being said, HERE I GO!

Good thing I found that last 8 minutes of Grey's Anatomy! I would have been so lost without it! American Idol is next...are you ready for my picks from LA?

The guy that wrote his own song, has 3 kids and is a pasture, was really good. I couldn't believe Avril said no to him, and all because of his career? Who are they to say that he has to continue what he's doing instead of becoming a singer? I'm glad they let him through in the end. Mary Powers - the rocker with the 8 year old daughter...she wasn't AMAZING, but she was good. I LOVED Andrew Garcia. I knew from his first note that he was going to be great. He's the one whose parents were members of gangs when they were younger, and he sang Maroon 5. He's gonna do great. Tasha - the Southern Belle was cute. Ok, but not great. I believe Chris Golightly - the foster child, will go far. I was almost in tears not just because of his story, but when he sang, I do honestly think he has talent, and I thought that it was sad no one would be there to congratulate him. I was happy when it showed he had friends there though. Then there was a good looking guy at the end, in a green shirt. It didn't show him singing, but he was very good looking and made it through, so we'll have to wait and see what his voice is like :D And of course, Katy Perry, she was the guest judge, and she was awesome! Now, for the ones that were terrible! Neil Goldstein - the 19 year old that Simon hit with the door...Are you kidding me??!?!? Then he walked into the sign. Do you really think the door was Simon's fault? Damien the Martial Arts guy...MY GOD! What are these people thinking?!?! They are NOT even remotely talented. The guy that said he'd be the result if Susan Boyle and Adam Lambert got together, was hilarious. Terrible, but made me laugh. As for Austin - I thought he was going to strip. Was his outfit plastic? Yikes! I loved the way Simon said "No it's not" when he said it was his purpose in life, and the way Katy said no to him. She's awesome. The show needs another honest person like Simon. Anyway, that's my views on that. Going to watch the end of the Man U game now, and then probably go to sleep. I'll have to catch up on the rest tomorrow. Good Night xx

Day 135

I've left my blog until night again. Oops! I just ran out of time today. There wasn't a minute where I could just stop and jot down (or type) what I had done so far. So here we are, 9:30, - which isn't TOO bad, and I'm just starting out.

My day started off well...Actually, not much went wrong today. The boys were a little annoying at times, but that's expected. They still have certain things they need to learn, but I believe that will come with time. I went downstairs after getting ready, and I had my banana and did some crosswords while letting Tim get the boys their breakfast. We did homework, and then I walked them up, in the cold, to school. Once again we were some of the only people in the playground at about 10 to. Poor Josh was freezing, as he was standing there in tights. Today was Roman day for the Year 4's, so he decided he would wear tights under the skirt. Something I said took guts. I was proud of him. I wanted to get a picture of him because his outfit looked great, but I had forgotten in the morning, and by the time I saw him in the afternoon, he had changed.

After dropping them, I walked up to the bank, took out money for Jazzercise, and crossed the street to go into the hall. I was early, but the instructor was there so I got to enjoy the heat while I helped collapse and move some tables off the stage. I did my hour of Jazzercise, and to be honest, I love it. It was harder today, but that's definitely a good thing. It made me feel like I was accomplishing something. Something I'd later ruin, but we'll get to that closer to the end of this blog.

After Jazzercise, I went into the doctors to see if I could book an appointment about my rib. Don't be so silly! I have to call from 8am on tomorrow to see if I can get in. The whole system is a joke here. Anyway, I walked home from there, and sat down at the table where I enjoyed one of my last bowls of cereal. Man I'm gonna miss that! It's ok though. I'm psyching myself up for this change. It's going to do wonders for me. I know it. I finished eating, jumped in the shower, changed and Heloise and I headed out to the shops. She had gone into her new placement school today to meet with the head master, and the only other thing she had to do was an exam at 2 o'clock, so we looked around for Nathaniel's birthday presents. Mission accomplished! I got him 2 books I think he'll enjoy. The two of us went into Starbucks to enjoy a drink, and Heloise got a sandwich. Then we split up. She went to do her test, and I went to HMV. I then spent a good 20 minutes looking for the washrooms. It's so weird here. There aren't any in the mall. You have to walk outside and to the City Hall to go. I couldn't believe it. Anyway, i eventually found them, then went on a hunt for jeans. I found some heels along the way :D And went back to HMV to buy a couple of DVD's. I met back up with Heloise, we walked to a store called GAME, where she bought Nathaniel a Wii game I can't wait to play :p It's the new Super Mario Brothers. I also found the manager to be very attractive with amazing eyes, and I did not want to stop talking to him. Unfortunately though, our conversation had to come to an end. That didn't stop Heloise and I talking about him as we left the mall, but I'll have to go buy "Just Dance" if I want to see him again.

We drove home where we met up with my Uncle Clifford and Aunt Jill who had picked the boys up from school and were waiting for us to go for Nathaniel's birthday dinner. His actual birthday isn't until the 28th, but tonight worked better for everyone. I did really well with ordering something sensible to eat. THEN, the waiter told me because my salad was on the specials list, it meant I got a dessert as well. I didn't want to, but I also didn't want to waste anyone's money. Little did I know that Heloise would say no without hesitation. I ordered a banana, pancake, toffee ice cream thing. DAMMIT! I was full by the time it got to the table, so you can imagine the disgust I had with myself by the time we made it home. D Day definitely begins tomorrow. I used to have will power...but since moving here, that little voice has disappeared, and it makes me angry, so I'm going to do something about it. I've decided I let myself eat the way I do because there's no consequence (aside from my getting fat - which should be enough to stop me...but that's not the way it is right now) Anyway, I decided no treats, and I will write down what I'm allowed to eat each day. If for some reason I can't do it, and I treat myself, I will deprive myself of popcorn the next time I go to the movies. That will be my consequence. Believe me, it should be enough to get me back on track. Sitting through a movie without popcorn would be hell. So there's my plan. I intend on sticking to it. We were, or I was, completely embarrassed when they brought out our dessert. They stopped the music that was playing, put on this really loud parade type music that turned into Happy Birthday, and marched over to the table with Nathaniel's dessert holding a single candle in the center. Everyone was staring at us. The way he looked at me with his one tooth hanging down (he lost one of his front ones the other day), made me laugh because he looked like an angry pirate. He was happy, but definitely looked surprised and a little embarrassed.

After getting home, I spoke to my Mom on the phone and on Skype. Now I'm going to do a crossword, and then hopefully get to sleep at a decent time. Good Night xx

Day 134

I am having a GREAT day! I know...you're wondering, is this Maija typing? Well it is. And I am happy. I'm also motivated. WOO! I'm fading fast...but I must stay awake for "Glee!"

I woke up after 3 and a half hours of sleep, and decided seeing as I still had last night's make up on...I didn't need to get up yet. I knew I wasn't showering before taking the boys to school, so I caught 15 more minutes. When I got up, I was more awake than ever! I went downstairs, still excited from last night, and I got a banana and a cup of tea. The boys came down and I was doing my crossword. I got some of their breakfast, but was clearly doing it wrong, so I sat down and continued working on my crossword. Then Josh read me some of his book, Nathaniel did his spellings, and then worked on his times tables. He shed some tears worried that he'd never be able to do them in under 2 minutes, and we had a talk about how some people are better at math than others. Me being one of the others. He cheered up a little, and we got through the homework. We were out of the house early, and walking down the street without any frustrations. What an improvement! I hope we can begin most of our upcoming days this way.

When we arrived at school it was 8:55. According to the new Head Masters rules, this is when you should get there, so learning can begin promptly at 9. We were 4 of probably 10 people there. Children and parents included. Ridiculous. We waited, and eventually the bell rang, and they all went in. Learning would not begin promptly today. Or any other day if you ask me. I walked home, and when I got here, I came right upstairs, changed into my PJ's, stretched out in my bed and thought of how relaxing it was to be able to have some peace and quiet. Without another thought, I was asleep. I woke up later to the vacuum. Monika was here. Oh well. I shut my eyes and let the whir of dirt send me into another dream.

I got a text from Toni just before 11:30 asking how I was. I text her back, reset my alarm for 11:45, and fell back to sleep. When I awoke the second time, I apologized for not answering her other text, and explained that I had fallen into a deep sleep again. I got out of bed, and did my wii fitness coach. After 15 minutes of that and collapsing during one warm up that had me in pain, I sat down and had my cereal. Now...this is where my motivation comes in. Are you ready for this? Beginning next week (Cuz I really want to enjoy it for the last time this week) I'm going to cut out cereal. I KNOW! I sound crazy. BUT, I'm not happy with the way I am looking, and know I'm not supposed to be eating it, so some sacrifices have to be made. I'm going to have my bowl of fruit in the mornings instead. Like I said though, that starts Monday. Anyway, I had my cereal and was checking my e-mails when Heloise came home. This ruined my plans for the day, but it was still kind of nice to be able to just sit there and relax. I sat on my laptop doing numerous things until about 2, when I decided I should jump in the shower. Then I came downstairs and wrote down all the things I want to get done tomorrow. Heloise had a few phone calls, and then the two of us went to pick up Nathaniel and Zach.

Standing there waiting for Zach, we were talking to Tina. Zoe came running out of the classroom, and instead of hugging her mom, she gave me a huge hug and jumped into my arms. She is SO cute! Zach came out, and with a huge smile on his face, gave Heloise a hug. I wasn't shocked. It was ok. At least I was getting love from someone. We then got Nathaniel who gave me a hug and held my hand as we walked to the car talking about what he did today.

At swimming Zach was in the funniest mood. He gave me what some might call a hug...without arms...and leaning over. Then we went out into the pool area while Heloise went to make a call, and sitting across the room from each other, we were making faces and playing peek a boo. Then, from the pool during his lesson he would put a huge smile on his face. I'd smile back, and then he'd wave. When Heloise sat down he did the same thing, waving at the two of us every couple of minutes. It was too cute. We looked over at Nathaniel and he waved as well. It was really nice. After their lesson, we drove to get Josh from football. The 3 of us waited in the car while Heloise jumped out to get him. Nathaniel has been asking questions about fainting lately, so we had a whole conversation about that. When Josh got in, we drove up to the grocery store. We listened to Hedley there while Heloise ran in to get some oranges for Nathaniel's class. Apparently they're sticking some cloves in them tomorrow.

When we got home I put "Bolt" on for Zach, and the two of us sat on the couch to watch. I was getting cuddles! We paused it for dinner, and watched the rest afterwards with Josh and Nathaniel half paying attention. They eventually went up to bed, and I sort of secretly, not quite, but complicated, made Josh a hot chocolate. He was so grateful. It was nice to see him smile. Sometimes, no, most times...he gets the raw end of the deal. I came back down and watched some of How I Met Your Mother and Friends, and then Heloise and I watched "Glee" together as Tim went off to soccer. He'll watch it, but he says when no one else will notice him watching it. I don't know why he can't just admit that it's good. Anyway, that ended and before getting sucked in to what looks like a good movie "Bride and Prejudice", I came upstairs to finish my blog and go to sleep. Tomorrow is an important day, so I need some rest. Plus! I'll be doing jazzercise, and I need my energy. Good Night xx

Day 133

I'm lying in bed, and just wrote yesterday's blog. I figure, in a few minutes, I'll get up and have my shower and everything. Throw on a hoodie and some jeans, and enjoy some breakfast as the grocery delivery will be here by then. I finally slept in today! Sure I was woken up a number of times, BUT I was tired enough to go back to sleep each time...until 10. When I was awoken that time, I decided I'd get up.

After I get ready, I'll do my hair and my nails in my room while listening to music :D Then I'll change and head out to Toni's. Tonight we're going to see Olly Murs perform! He was one of the finalists on this year's X Factor. I'm excited! I assume I will write a little bit, probably not much, once I get home. As much as I'll want to elaborate on the show, it will depend on how I'm feeling. We'll see :)

2:10am, and I am just getting into bed. Tomorrow is going to be a LONG day! I better have some caffeine before taking the boys to swimming. Anyway, I went downstairs this morning, got my breakfast, and came right back up here to eat it. I spent the day in my room listening to music and getting ready. I went down to get tea and soup, said hi to my Uncle, Nathaniel and Heloise, and came right back up. Zach wouldn't look at me.

At one point during the day, I attempted to watch Grey's Anatomy, but I missed the last 8 minutes of the episode, and can't find it anywhere :(

When I was going out the door, Zach was speaking to me. So much so, that I had to come back into the family room a few different times. He wanted to know where I was going, was I going to sing, would there be popcorn? How about sweets? Would I sing along? Would I know the songs? What a cutie. I went outside, and then had to maneuver the beast between 2 cars and some garbage cans...all in reverse. Finally out, and without a scratch, I was on my way.

I got to Toni's and went in while she finished getting ready. One of her friends was already there, and we were picking the other one up on the way. Doors for the concert opened at 7. We were leaving Toni's at 7. Originally, I was afraid we were going to be late. They however, clearly knew what they were doing. We set off, and stopped to pick up Hannah. She got in, and we went to Chelmsford. We parked, and walked up to the regular bar "Chicago's". We went in and got our wristbands. Picked up some drinks, and had a seat. The girl at the cash told us Olly wasn't performing until 11:30. I thought she was nuts. She wasn't.

The night wasn't at all what I expected, but I had a good time nonetheless. We sat down at the table, the girls also questioning the cashier, and we had some drinks, and they ordered fries. I was noticing A LOT of plaid shirts, and some butch women, and at one point turned to Toni to point out how many gay followers Olly had. It was then that she informed me they could in fact be fans, but it was also gay night at Chicago's. That explained a lot. It also answered the question I had about the girl that shook my hand in the washroom not too long before this. After a while we got up to dance. Eventually, it was time. Olly came out, and everyone was screaming! He was great. He only performed 3 songs which I was surprised about, but they were 3 great performances. Man can he move! He is one sexy man! Little did I know before going tonight, that I would be meeting him! Turned out not everyone had wristbands, but those that did got to line up after the show, meet him, and get there pics taken with him. He gave us all a kiss on the cheek when the 4 of us walked up for our picture, and then as I was on the end and had to walk past him to leave, he said something to me - I couldn't hear him cuz of the music :( - And then he gave me another kiss on the cheek. What a cutie pie. We walked down the stairs and passed the good looking security guard. Wondering where to get our pictures, we stood there talking. We assumed they'd just be up on a website somewhere as it was a professional taking them. As we were heading out though, I noticed a line up, and some printer paper. We jumped into line immediately. An hour later, and just Toni and I left - the other 2 had gone to wait outside - we had our pictures in hand, and were very happy. Toni was in pain because of her heels...but we were happy nonetheless. I was putting my picture into the enveloppe on the way out, and one of the security guards stopped me and asked to see it. I showed him and he showed his co worker, saying how nice it was. I was struggling to get it back in the enveloppe. The security guard looked at me again, walked over to me and said "Are you married?" - Toni was already on the other side by this point - "Are you married?" he repeated. "Am I married??? No." He reached into his pocket, and that's when Toni came running. "WHAT IS HE DOING?" she asked as she came over. She was worried, but I couldn't stop laughing. He had pulled out a bottle that said Hugo Boss on it. He held it in his hand and said "This is mens aftershave, would you like some?" I was so confused, it was so random. I laughed and said no thank you, as Toni and I walked away. She asked me what that was all about...and I couldn't really give her an answer. We walked back to the car, her arm through mine as I had a sweater on, and she was frozen. She could barely move because of the pain in her feet, and her 2 friends weren't much better. Luckily I wore my runner boots tonight :D We got to the car, turned on the heat, and I drove home. I dropped the 3 of them off, and then luckily, without fault, found my way home. Now it's gone 2:30, and I'm ending my blog the same way it started...lying in bed. I should DEFINITELY be asleep. Speak to you tomorrow! Good Night xx

Day 132

6:30 - Rise and Shine!
I was surprisingly awake. I had at first, tried to go back to sleep until 7...but then, worried I wouldn't be ready on time, I jumped out of bed and got myself ready. When I went into the washroom, I noticed Jerry's bum was getting a little bigger. Now, I'm not judgemental. If Jerry wants to get fat, that's entirely up to him. It's if Jerry's having babies that will create the problem.

I finished getting ready and headed downstairs. Nathaniel and Josh were so into the TV they didn't notice me sitting at the table eating, until I said something. It made Josh jump out of his skin. They had no idea we were going to Bristol, which lead me to believe there was NO WAY we were leaving at 7:30. Nathaniel asked me for some breakfast, but I told him he had to wait until I was done mine. (I know that sounds terrible, but I think on my day off, I should be allowed some non soggy cereal. Anyway, Tim came down soon enough and got breakfast for everyone. I went into the kitchen and said to Tim "I've been allowing this spider to live in my bathroom for about a week now, but as it's getting bigger, I'm afraid it will have babies and was wondering if you could put it outside. When you get a minute". His answer? "Our spiders don't do anything". PARDON? He repeated himself, and more calmly than expected, I said "Oh, I know that...I was fine with the one, I just don't want hundreds of little ones crawling around". He didn't really have an answer, and in my head I was screaming "I KNOW THEY DON'T DO ANYTHING! THAT'S WHY I DIDN'T ASK YOU TO KILL IT!" Anyway, I went up to do my makeup, and heard everyone getting into the car. No one had called me, so I continued doing what I was doing. Thinking "maybe they'll leave without me? No...they wouldn't do that". I finished gathering my things, and went downstairs. Heloise was coming back in, and asked if I was ready. I was. I waited for her to do what she was doing, and we went out to the car together. (Oh, and before heading back downstairs, I checked on the bathroom. Jerry was still there). We sat in the car, but things were forgotten, so as we sat and waited, there was a trip back to the house. We ended up leaving at about 8...which isn't too bad.

We weren't allowed to listen to the music :| (The boys were watching movies, and Tim - driving, had his Ipod in). THANK GOD something made me pack my ipod. I put my headphones in and soon fell asleep. I woke up to Tim complaining that he'd taken the wrong turn. We stopped at a gas station and Heloise ran in for some drinks and food. The drive continued. My Ipod died while I was drifting off listening to Across the Universe. When we finally arrived in Bristol, I saw Windsor Castle. Apparently that's where the Queen is currently living, because the flag was up. We drove to my cousin's place, and I finally met the baby! Emily. She's about 2 months now, and she's gorgeous :D I got my fill of baby cuddles! Ok, maybe not my fill...I wanted to bring her home. I told Heloise and Tim that that was all I needed to keep me warm in their house. Josh told me to have my own. - Thanks Buddy! -

We sat around talking, and Tim took Josh to get a trim at the hair dresser's down the street. Well...don't send Tim to supervise a trim. Although he claims to have said trim to the hair dresser...Josh's beautiful hair is gone. It wasn't very nice for Josh because when he walked in Heloise said it looked terrible, and I turned to Heloise and said it's a little Tinkerbell ish. (Thinking Pixie like). The more I looked at it, the more I realized he looks like a girl playing Peter Pan. I kept my mouth shut, and thought about how he might be feeling. I asked if he liked it, and when he said yes, I said well that's all that matters. As the day went on, it sort of grew on you...but I still prefer his longer hair. Sarah (My cousin's wife) made us lunch, and we had all been sitting down when Josh came into model the cut. When everyone was done with lunch, we headed to the Zoo. Their zoos are nothing like ours. They have this major play area (partly new), that Josh and Nathaniel decided they would try. It was this aerial thing. You got into a harness, and then walked across suspension bridges and ropes and things. It looked cool. Nathaniel panicked and started to cry at the beginning, because he hates heights. But he had said he wanted to go, and that he didn't need an adult. So he stood there waiting for the instructor who was really nice, and went out and did the entire course with him. When the two finished, zip wiring themselves back down to the ground, we continued looking at animals. Monkeys, Lemurs, a Red Panda! <-- They're so cute! Then we saw some seals and that was about it. We headed back to the car park. Sarah took the stroller from me so she could load the car, and we all went back to their place for dinner.

We talked, and the boys played. I got more baby cuddles, and then we ate. Soon after dinner we left for the 3 hour ride home. A 3 hour ride that would include no music whatsoever. FORGET THAT! About half an hour into the drive, I opened my laptop, plugged in my headphones, and listened to my music on there. I fell asleep but was feeling like a bag of dirt so I kept waking up. Not to mention, although Tim had his Ipod in, and everyone else was asleep...any time anything happened on the road, he spoke loudly enough to wake Heloise and I up. We would respond, and I assume she fell back to sleep as quickly as I did. We got home at about 11:30, I helped unload the car, and came right up to bed. My room was freezing so I put my heater on and got under the covers. I didn't have time to write my blog then because of how I was feeling, and I wanted a decent sleep. I tried to lie on my right side...It wasn't having it. DAMMIT! I guess I'll be looking into Physio here :( Soon enough, after turning onto my left side, I fell asleep. xx

Day 131

What a morning! Is anyone else sick of hearing me complain? Cuz I sure am. Don't get me wrong, the boys were really well behaved this morning. That was great. I was definitely having a better morning than I've had recently. It wasn't until we realized at 8:40, that it was raining and Heloise suggested I take the car, that things got hectic. We were driving up the high street around 8:47, traffic was bad and I had to drop Heloise, and return for Zoe to drop her and the boys at school all before 9.

I somehow accomplished it, but my heart was racing as I carried Zoe in my arms, had Zach holding my other hand, and had Josh and Nathaniel following closely behind. Poor Josh, trying to put something back in his bag after handing me his guitar money, dropped both his football and school bags on the ground. He scooped them up with tears in his eyes. I appologized to him and told him to try and have a good day. Poor guy. I hate sending them off when they've had a hard morning. Even when it's their fault, I don't like seeing them upset. So today, when he had done nothing wrong, it was extremely hard. Zach's teacher could clearly see the stress in our faces as she was saying "It's ok Auntie, you're not late, you're not late...we just opened the doors early because of the rain". Thank goodness! I dropped the two little ones off, and with my heart still racing, I walked up to the office to explain the guitar money fiasco. The secretary is so nice, she understood what Heloise was missing and made a note of it. - It's a confusing situation if you don't know what's going on with books and such, even I don't know...so I'll leave it at that -

I walked back to the car, and drove home to change. Once I did that, and thought about Jerry, and how I saw him this morning but he wasn't there now...and what if he is a female and is laying eggs (Thanks for that Aunt Cindy)...I got my shoes on, grabbed my rain coat and headed out for my run. I decided, with the way I was feeling, out of breath because of a cold, cold because of the rain, and my heart still racing from stress...that I would cancel my plans to wash my own hair, and shorten my exercise stint by just running up to the hair dressers. Kill 2 birds with one stone. Well, when I got to the hair dressers, I looked at my phone and had only been running for a little over 6 minutes. Not good enough I told myself. I kept running around the corner, and up the street I normally go to. I did 10 minutes, and then walked quickly back to the hair dressers. They washed my hair, and the lady was much better than the one that normally does it. - I'll be asking for her next time for sure. - And I ran home. On my way back my rib started to hurt :( I only ran for 5 minutes. A little disappointing. When I got home my rib was hurting and I know my limits. I didn't want to do anything to it on the wii fit, so I just weighed myself in and that was that. What a failure! I really should have done more...but I just couldn't bring myself to today. You would think that I could just over come it, considering I'm upset with myself...but I really have no energy right now. So I jumped in the shower, got ready, and came downstairs for my cereal. I was going to watch Grey's, but I started talking to my brother and still am. I have to go pick Heloise up in about 25 minutes, so I won't have time to get through the episode. It will have to wait.

After I pick her up and drop her at the hair dressers, I'll go up to Braintree and try to relax for a few minutes at Starbucks. Then it will be time to come back, pick up Nathaniel and Zach, get Nathaniel dinner in under 15 minutes, and have him ready for Colchester United before my Uncle gets here to pick him up. Can I go back to sleep yet?

I seriously worry about myself sometimes. I just got back from Freeport...and have no idea what roads I took. It was a way I've never been before...and I was driving! I have to go get the boys and make dinner, but I'll tell you about the drive later.

So I haven't had much time to sit and type. I've been up and down like crazy, and have just finished cleaning my room/packing for Bristol, and we might not even be going now. UGH! Anyway I went to Braintree this afternoon after dropping Heloise, and for some reason, I couldn't bring myself to relax at Starbucks. My mind was still racing, and so was my heart. I decided I wanted to go to Bench to get some shoes I had decided I wanted about a week ago. I looked in a couple of stores on the way, and eventually got to Bench. I walked in and the guy told me it was 25% off from 12 til 4, and it was about 2 when I walked in! SCORE! I got my shoes, and some underwear and tried on a few other things, but felt rushed so I didn't buy any of that. On my drive home I was thinking of how silly it was of me to only buy one pair of shoes! Why didn't I get the same in the other colour? AND the boots? They were only 18 pound, and then 25% off! WHAT WAS I THINKING? Well...clearly I wasn't, but I was certainly thinking about it the whole way home. IDIOT! And that's why I have no idea how I got back, or what roads I took. Scary.

Oh my goodness...will there ever be a day that I get to sleep in? I just found out we're leaving here at 7:30 tomorrow, which means I have to be up at 6:30 :| UGH!

Anyway, better finish this off quick so I can get at least 6 hours of sleep. When I got home from Freeport...however I did it...I only had about 5 minutes to sit down. Then I had to go pick Zach and Nathaniel up. I stood out in the rain waiting for Zach's teacher to let him out, and then the 3 of us walked to the car. When we got home, I made Nathaniel's dinner as quick as possible. He ate, and Heloise came in. I sat down for a minute to drink my Mocha, but before I got too far into it, Heloise asked if I could head out to get Josh. She had to wait for the carpenter. I jumped back into the car and drove to the school. I waited for his football to finish, and when he came out we walked back to the car. He was filthy. Happy because he got to play in nets :) But filthy.

On our way home, some muppet was driving way too close to me, and hit my side mirror. Luckily Heloise's car has mirrors that fold in, so aside from a scratch that may or may not have been there already, there wasn't much damage. I was angry though. The rain wasn't helping my mood in any way. The carpenter arrived as we pulled in, and I made Josh and Zach some dinner. Once the carpenter was gone, Heloise ran to the store to get our dinner, and when she got back there was some chaos with poor Josh. Something that wasn't really his fault at all got him in trouble. I know it was mostly because of his reaction to the situation, and I explained that to him later...but I still felt bad for him. In the end he went off to Cubs, and we sat around waiting to see if we were going to Bristol or not. After speaking to my Mom on Skype, I went downstairs to watch "Bride Wars" and "The Wedding Date" with Heloise and Tim. Well...Heloise, and Tim when he'd occasionally look up. I decided if I was going to get any better, I should get to bed so I could have a decent sleep. As I was changing, I could hear Heloise coming up the stairs. She was on the phone. She knocked on my door, and when I answered, she informed me that we are now leaving for Bristol at 7:30 tomorrow morning. That being said...Good Night xx

Day 130

I am not currently in the best frame of mind. In fact, I'm losing what little mind I have left.

Ok so since writing that sentence, I've eaten (almost been sick), had a conversation with Josh and Zach, and have had a chocolate pudding that I didn't need, nor did I enjoy...to calm me down. My tummy is gurgling :S

I'm watching the Orlando auditions of American Idol now, but let me tell you about my day. After all, you must be wondering about my new adventure :p Oh but before I start...this guy's pretty! Hahaha for any of you who watch it, you'll know him as Theo...the guy with the feather and the make up...and of course, his costume would not be complete without the sparkly cape. I'm not sure if he's good. He needs to sing something else. And this guy's his assistant? Is that the new term for someone's beard? I like Seth Rollins. The guy who's 28 with the son who was diagnosed with autism. Oooh Coming up...the most dramatic episode! I'm excited. I wouldn't mind going on there, sucking so bad that they say no, and then crying just to get a hug from Ryan. I also like Shelby, the last audition from Day 1. Wow Jay Stone the guy that beat boxed to the Beatles Come Together was AMAZING!! And a YES to a guy just cuz he split his pants? hahaha what is that all about? Ok enough about that...

This morning did not start off well at all. More troubles with Josh and his homework. Zach didn't want to eat his breakfast, and Nathaniel had to watch the making of Madagascar instead of doing his times tables, because he was going to a friends after school/before Judo, and would not have time to do his Madagascar project after all that. So AGAIN homework before school, and no one was listening to me. I was really trying to figure out what I was doing here. If no one listens to me, is there any point in Heloise and Tim paying me? My day had just started, and I was already close to tears. I got everyone ready on time, and we drove Heloise to Angels before going to the boys' school. After everyone was where they were supposed to be, I came home to grab the equipment for my new adventure. I then headed to the high street.

I parked the car, met up with some ladies who were clearly headed to the same place as I was, and walked into the village hall. I was going to...are you ready for this?...JAZZERCISE!

IT WAS AWESOME! I will be going back every Tuesday and Thursday. Wednesdays, I have something different in store ;) But I can't tell you about that just yet :p I will run Mondays and Fridays.

When I finished my class, I came home and did my wii fit, then had my cereal and showered. I watched an episode of American Idol, and headed to Braintree for a Starbucks. When I pulled into the parking lot, I got out of the car, and the first person I saw...some random guy who was unlocking his van, turned to me and said "Good shoes!" I was wearing my black and white lace up boots that look like converse. It was really nice. I got to Starbucks and ordered my drink. It was delicious, and so relaxing. I wrote a letter, and after about half an hour, I left to pick Heloise up.

The two of us drove to get the boys from school. I got hugs from Zoe, and Rafi was "talking" to me about trains. He's so cute and is apparently excited for me to babysit him next Friday :D We came home with Josh, an annoying friend of his, and Zach. The ride home was interesting, and when we got home...that's when I really began losing my mind. I won't go into too much detail about that though.

It was then that I began my blog. Breaking in between with things to do, other things have happened. For instance...the last few days, there's been a spider in my bathroom. I went in one day and freaked cuz he wasn't where I saw him last. - I do not like when spiders are on the lose - Anyway, it turned out he was just in the little hole in the blind. When I go in in the mornings, if he is not hanging there, he is in the hole. I decided tonight that he's getting pretty comfy. In fact, he's made a pretty nice web for himself. He's clearly gonna be around for a while, and as long as he sticks to our agreement and doesn't wander...we can be friends. I have called him Jerry.

Anyway, I better go watch the end of Idol so that I can sleep. I should be asleep already. What am I doing?!?! Speak to you tomorrow. Good Night xx

Day 129

It sure is icy out there today. Not meaning that there's literally ice on the ground...but the air is very cold. We may even see some snow. Ok, that may be wishful thinking but anyway...Although I woke up thinking "I sooo don't want to go for a run today, I feel like crap and can't move!" I got out of bed, and corrected my way of thinking. "I love how I feel after going for my run, so I will do it. Even if I can't get as far as normal, I will go out for an hour and see what happens".

I got ready and came downstairs. Josh was reading. Was it his school book? Nope. I asked him nicely to go get his school book. This of course lead to a mini break down. "Mommy said if I read to Grandma lastnight, she'd tell you I didn't have to read it this morning". The winging continued, and he ran upstairs and shut his door. When he returned to eat his breakfast, I explained that there is no point in me being here, if every time I tell them to do something, they run and ask Heloise if they have to. I didn't speak to him for the rest of the morning, aside from telling him to do his times tables and saying bye at school. He hates when I give him the silent treatment, and tries desperately to make me speak...but hopefully it will help teach him.

We got through the breakfasts, and I did Zach's teeth and hair. - He was really well behaved this morning. I guess he really wants to go to Crazy Kids this afternoon with Xavier, Michelle and I. That was our plan as of yesterday, but I told him if he didn't co operate this morning, he wouldn't be able to go. - We walked up to the school, Michelle asked me to watch Xavier as she had to run Rafi to Angels, and once everyone went into their classrooms, I came home.

I got ready, and told myself again and again that running was the right thing to do. I did some stretches hoping it would eliminate some of my pain. Well I was right...my thighs didn't hurt today, but I don't think that's to do with stretches. I think the pain is working it's way down my body. It started Monday at my shoulder and rib, worked it's way to my thighs for Tuesday, and today it was all in my shins and ankles. With any luck, I'll be pain free tomorrow. HA! Better walk up and get Zach. I'll write more tonight.

So I did my run, and I came back for my cereal. Something that gets me through the run each day :p Oh, but before I ate, I did my wii fit. It told me I lost 3 pounds. Oh how I hope there's SOME truth to that. Maybe not 3, but I hope I'm at least going down. It says my ideal weight is 10 stone 9 pounds. I don't know what that means. I also did my exercise on there. Today it was all a lower body workout...My thighs were SCREAMING! When I finished, I sat down, ate, and checked my e-mails. I jumped in the shower and got ready, popped some laundry in, and took some off the clothes hanger. By then, it was time to run Tim down to the train station. As I was pulling back into the driveway, I heard something on the radio. I waited to hear the rest.
Rats are coming indoors because of the cold. One lady saw one as big as a shoe. Great. Just in case slugs weren't' bad enough, I now have to worry about rats. I had heard enough. I turned it off, and came inside. I had just enough time to check something on my computer, and then get my mitts and everything I was taking to go get Zach.

I met Michelle outside, we picked the boys up, jumped in her car and headed to crazy kids. After a little over an hour of them playing there, we took them to Starbucks. Where I had one of the worst made drinks ever :( I was not happy. The girl at the cash asked me if I wanted my regular, but I had decided I felt like a Decaf Venti Soy Caramel Macchiato instead. Well...the guy that made it must not have known what he was doing :( When I picked up the cup, I knew it was wrong. It felt like a cappuccino it was so light. It didn't taste like caramel until the last 2 sips :( I was not happy...and because I wasn't with my Mom who understands these things...I had no one to complain to. Sigh. I got a muffin for myself, and a drink and a cupcake for Zach, and we all sat down while the boys indulged in some chocolatey treats, splitting a piece of chocolate cake, and the chocolate cupcake.

We drove home, and when we got here, Josh, Heloise and Nathaniel were heading out to Beavers. Josh was still trying to talk to me. I only said what I had to to sound polite. Hi, and see you later. He tried to give me a hug. Nathaniel had given me a huge hug when I arrived. It is definitely nice to feel loved. Zach decided he would stay here with me, and the two of us are now watching Robin Hood. A movie I didn't think I'd ever seen. But as soon as we pushed play and the Rooster began singing...it all started coming back to me. It has been a really long time since I've watched this. The boys and Heloise will get home soon, then Josh and Nathaniel will head to rugby, and I'll go to the movies. I'm finally going to see AVATAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait!!!! I'll write about what I thought after :)

AVATAR WAS EFFIN AMAZING! In case you haven't heard, I want to live on a floating mountain with Jake. Now that I'm in bed though, and feeling like a bag of dirt, I REALLY need to go to sleep. A new adventure tomorrow. Tune in to see what it is :p
Good Night xx

Day 128

Ahhh So much to watch! I figured I should start writing my blog first though. I can always watch my shows while the boys are at my Uncle's tonight. "My shows"...thank goodness I didn't say my stories...I'm on the verge of sounding like a 90 year old.

Not so much success in the homework department last night. Yes they did some, but after numerous complaints, they were told they could stop. ARGH! This meant we had to do some this morning. Again! It's such a pain! Anyway, I woke up feeling like a bag of dirt. My throat's all scratchy and I'm stuffed up. I heard Tim leave early. When I got downstairs, it was just Josh at the table. He must have been up really early today as he had already had his breakfasts and was reading. He wasn't reading his school book though. No, he was reading a novel. Which is great...at bedtime. Isn't it common sense that if you have to finish something for school, that's what you should be doing? Anyways, I made him switch books. Nathaniel came down, I got his breakfast. Zach followed. He chose his cereal, I asked if he was sure, and he said yes. I poured it. Was he eating the last 4 bites? Of course not. He sat there complaining. I told him he better eat it. I went in to make Nathaniel's 3rd course, and Zach disappeared upstairs. The only reason he returned is because I kept nagging him, and Heloise told him he just had to have some fruit. When he finally got back to the table I explained that the only reason she said that was because she didn't know I had already told him to finish his cereal. We went through the routine. The arguing, the elimination of things he enjoys. Not only is his DS gone (Until next week), but on top of that punishment, he doesn't get any TV today. He didn't care. I threatened to have him banned from the pool tonight at my Uncle's. As soon as those words left my mouth I realized that would NEVER happen. Especially when I wasn't there to see it through. So instead, I told him if he didn't start eating by the time I finished counting, he would be seated on the steps when he got home, and that's all he would be able to do this afternoon. That worked. Thank God.

Nathaniel finished his breakfasts, Zach finally finished his, and Josh did his times tables. When he finished, I told him to continue reading while Nathaniel did his times tables. Josh didn't like that, so he went up to his room "to read". Yeah, I'm sure that happened. He came down later telling me that Heloise said he had read enough and he could stop now. The 3 of us were ready and at the door by 8:40. Zach was doddling in the kitchen with Heloise. He was meant to be doing his flash cards but was not concentrating. As it got later, I got more and more frustrated as he was making the boys late again. Heloise decided he has to do his flash cards twice a day now, as he is too slow at it, and is forgetting how to read rather than progressing. She then asked me if I could make sure he does his hair and teeth each morning. (I thought he had been). So, making the boys wait even longer, Zach and I ran upstairs and I did his teeth. We ran back down, and I stuffed him into his jacket. Heloise had just left. The 4 of us walked out the door and briskly up the street. On the way we picked Sam up. - His sister Zoe is still a little sick, and now his brother Joe has an earache. - We walked to the school, and by some miracle, we were on time. Josh said goodbye clearly wanting to hug me, but afraid to do it in front of Sam, so I just rustled his hair and off he went. Nathaniel came up, and being silly gave me a huge hug and said goodnight. He says by the time he gets home from his Grandma's it'll be bed time so he should say goodnight now. So I got another hug. Zach and I went to stand with Noah, his dad, Xavier, his mom, and his brother. Michelle had already told me I looked stressed out. Boy was she right. Zach began to go in. He didn't give me a hug, so I stole one. I walked back to Michelle's car with her and we had a little chat. Then I walked home. As I approached the door, the rain began. Thank You Mother Nature! For waiting until I was finished.

When I arrived, I got changed, and left for my run. I was excited. I ran to the same spot as yesterday, but must have run faster because I got there 2 minutes early. I had to walk for a couple of minutes, and then I made up the remaining 2 as I ran up to the high street. I slowed down and walked for another little while, then ran for 10, and walked home. I was feeling the pain in my abs and my sides, but it was a good healthy pain. I'm looking forward to tomorrow. It's funny when you run, you tend to listen to the music and nothing else. But when you slow things down, when you start to walk...your mind doesn't stop. You think about the things that annoy you. The things that are stressing you out, and even things as odd as..."How many overweight old people do you see walking around?...Guess that's one good reason to keep working out no matter what". In the end though, you get sick of the stress and the emotions in your head, and you feel like running again. Which is a good thing. Maybe I'll be running the entire way in a few weeks. I also thought about how far I'll be able to run with my Mom when I get back. Will we run then go to Starbucks on the way home? Or will we come home and change, then go up to Starbucks? Oh how I can't wait for those days.

When I arrived home, I had a note in the mail slot. It said M.Preddy had missed a parcel. DAMMIT! I'm not allowed to pick it up at the post office until after 2 now. The suspense is killing me. I think I'll pick Zach up, we'll walk to the high street and sort some things out at the bank, and by that time, I should be able to pick it up. Fingers crossed. I wonder if it's my scarf.

Anyway, now I'm just listening to music. I enjoyed a bowl of cereal, and have done my 15 minutes on the wii. I'll shower soon, and then walk up to get Zach.

Went to get Zach. I got the lean in again. Only this time, he ran at me! Wow! He must miss me with these longer days. Don't get too excited though. On the way home he asked where his mom was, and when she'd be home. He held my hand as we walked to the bank. It was closed. He held my hand as we went to the post office. Luckily, it was open! And although it was before 2, my parcel was there. Guess what it was...MY SCARF! and a cd of pictures from Adam's wedding! I'm going to be warm again!...sort of...Thank you Tara :D In the post office Zach was sitting on my feet. I asked if, instead of sitting on the ground, would he like me to hold him. The answer was yes. I held him until I got to the counter, and then after getting the parcel, he asked if I could carry him again. We made it across the street and a few steps, before I told him I had to put him down. My muscles were not having it today. I can barely move as the day goes on hahaha. Tomorrow will be interesting, but I'm hoping to not let it stop me. The wii told me today that I lost a pound. I hope it's right.

We walked home, and I made some hot chocolate for the two of us. We sat and talked, and I did some crossword. We listened to some music. Zach can be so smart sometimes. He asked who was singing. I said Jason Mraz. He said who sings the one about give you my heart. I asked which he meant and he said the one from the car. I realized he was talking about "Last Christmas" and told him that was Savage Garden. When he finished his drink, we opened his work book. He was trying to spell his own name, but forgot the Y. He told me that he couldn't remember what came next. I know that's not true. I explained that I knew he was a smart boy, and he knew the answer. He then asked if I could just tell him. I replied with a no, and told him that he has to be able to do it himself, because his teacher's won't tell him either. I said we had to practice so he could be ahead of the class. He told me he didn't want to be head teacher. I told him he didn't have to be, but he had to be smart...and this is where the little monster Zach came out. He said "But you tell me off when I'm smart". I told him that wasn't true, and before I could explain, he said "Yes, the other day when I said Hi and told you that was talking...you told me off for being smart" (COULDN'T YOU JUST SCREAM?!?!?!) I said Zach, that's being a smarty pants, and you know that's not the same thing...because you're intelligent. He started laughing. He is definitely smarter and more kaniving than people give him credit for. Anyway...we moved on to his flash cards, and after a half hour of attempting to read the word "come", Zach fell asleep on my lap. A little while later, I moved him to the couch. Heloise came in, scooped him up, and took the boys to my Uncle and Aunt's for dinner.

I then got my coat and my SCARF on, threw on some mitts, and headed out to the store. I picked up some soy milk, and some soup. I was looking for Chicken noodle...can you believe they didn't have CHICKEN NOODLE SOUP??? WHAT IS THAT?? I settled for chicken and leek cup of soup. Then I looked for Soy yogurt. I couldn't find any so I asked an employee if she knew whether or not they carried it. She said it wasn't where I was looking, and she took me to a different aisle. I thought it was a little odd that it wouldn't be refrigerated, but when she pointed, I dismissed my thoughts. I knelt down to look. Chocolate or Vanilla...hmm...chocolate. I had looked at the label, and it didn't say yogurt on it...all it said was dessert. But why would I second guess the employee? I picked up an apple, paid, and walked home.

When I got back, I got comfy on the couch, in the peace and quiet, and I watched an episode of Desperate Housewives while I ate my apple. When that finished, I decided it was time for dinner, and so I made my cup of soup. YOGURT TIME! Or so I thought. As I approached the fridge, I thought to myself...dessert...vanilla or chocolate...this isn't going to be yogurt! I bet you it's pudding! I opened the fridge, took it out, and sure enough...pudding. DAMMIT! Oh well. I guess it's a plus that it tasted pretty good. I guess I'll search for yogurt elsewhere another day.

Anyway, I caught up on the Office, and now all I have to do be completely caught up on my shows, is watch American Idol tomorrow. YAY!

Well...the house is quiet, and I'm enjoying it. I'm going to sit back, watch TV, and speak to some people. Good Night xx

Day 127

The first thing I came into contact with this morning? Not the children, not Tim...not even Jelly. No, I was greeted downstairs by 2 slugs in the kitchen.
Now...I don't have a problem with slugs...in fact, I think they're kind of cute. But apparently I don't like having them in the kitchen. Seeing them lying there, slithering slowly past the dishwasher, I felt like gagging. I didn't pick them up. I decided I would let Tim see them. As I ate my banana, and drank my juice, Tim was taking forever to come downstairs, and one of the slugs was slowly disappearing into the small crack between the dishwasher and the cupboard. Aw Crap!

Eventually, when Tim made it down, I told him he had slugs in the kitchen. His response? "Oh No." Not a WHAT? That's weird! But a "Oh No". Apparently, this is common? He told me it happens every now and then in the winter. Great, good to know. Guess I'll be watching where I step from now on. Slipping on a slug, after all, is not a good way to start your day.

The boys sauntered downstairs. First it was Zach. As I had finished my breakfast, I was doing a crossword, and looked up just in time to see him scurrying off in the opposite direction. I called him back, and he spoke to me from where I couldn't see him. I told him to come closer. I then explained that I am going to be living here for the next few months, (he wasn't getting rid of me anytime soon), so he is not to run the other way when he sees me in the morning. I told him I would not do this with him each morning. Instead, he is to come in, and tell me what he wants for breakfast. Giving me the look of death, he slumped over to the table and began mumbling his sentence. I made him repeat himself, and he told me he wanted a brioche. I did not get up to get it until he said please. After getting breakfast for him, Nathaniel came down, then Josh. I did each of their courses, and then they all went up to do teeth and hair.

As nobody finished their homework lastnight, we of course had to do it this morning. Well the boys had came down late, so I already knew it was going to be a challenge. Who am I kidding? I knew lastnight that we wouldn't get everything done. Josh read me the last pages of his book, while Nathaniel did his times tables. It was 8:45 by the time Josh finished reading and giving his summary, and I told them we now had to hurry to school. I ran upstairs to do what I needed to do while they were supposed to be getting ready at the door. A lot of screaming happened between the 3 of them, mostly because Josh and Nathaniel were trying to get Zach ready and he wouldn't listen. Josh HATES being late for school. Probably more than anything. I ran down, toothbrush in my mouth, and stuffed Zach into his coat. I ran back up to spit and finish brushing, and hurried back down to finally, 3 boys at the door. We left and I explained that we had to walk briskly. Zach was lagging behind as he usually does, and Nathaniel wasn't far in front of him. I told Nathaniel he had to hurry up. "I'm faster than Zach!" he said. To which I answered, "Yes, and Zach is 4"...and before I could finish my sentence Zach was running ahead of me...guess that's one way to get him motivated. I then finished my sentence with Nathaniel saying "and he's running, there's not much more he can do". Zach was just far enough ahead that I could still see him, but he got a rocket up Nathaniel's bum so we were walking much faster. In fact, I think it was the fastest walk we've all done yet. I told them it was 8:58, and we legged it up the last of the path. We arrived at school miraculously on time. Josh said goodbye and went to his class. Nathaniel lined up at his, and I took Zach over to his portable. He had some questions about giving in his lunch money and how he was going to get his pasta today. What a cutie. I answered, and he went in on his own. I then walked home.

When I arrived, I changed, answered the phone, then got my shoes on and headed out for some exercise. I got to the sidewalk and began to run. I was so excited! I ran down the high street, past my hair dressers and up and down a few different streets. I continued running until I couldn't handle the pain in my shoulder and rib anymore. If I took one more running step, I would have keeled over in tears. I could not believe the pain shooting through me. It wasn't fair! I was so angry! I had only run 15 minutes, and that was all I could do?!?! While I was happy with myself in the simple fact that I was finally doing some real exercise, I was still very disappointed that after what will be 3 years in May, I still can't go for a proper, lengthy run. That in itself almost had me crying my eyes out. I walked it off. I walked around quite a bit of Kelvedon. I went down a street and up to the school paths, then back up to the high street where I decided to try running again. This time I got through 10 minutes. I probably could have gone 5 more, but thought I should cool down before going into the house. So I slowed down, and walked up over the bridge past the river, and then turned around and came back. Checked for water in the outside fridge...no such luck. I took my shoes off at the door and did my weigh in. It says I gained 4 pounds since doing it last (Before South Africa). I feel like I've gained much more than that, but then again I can't go by the wii balance board anyways as it's so unreliable. I then did a 15 minute cardio work out, logged everything I've done so far this morning and realized I had done 115 minutes worth of exercise. Not too shabby. Especially knowing that I'll be walking to and from school quite a few times today. In fact, on that note, I'm going to go shower, and walk up to get Zach.

I just got back from dropping Zach back off at school, and have a few minutes to type before going back to school to get Josh.

I got a nice surprise when I picked Zach up today. It was his first time staying for lunch, so I didn't need to get him until 1:15. When he came out, he hustled over to me and leaned against me. It was almost like giving me a hug! Without the arms. We walked together up to the high street, and got a few things at Boots. We continued home, and once in the door, I made the two of us some hot chocolate. We sat at the table and enjoyed some together while having a conversation. He of course didn't want the whole thing, so he left the table and went to look for a movie to watch. He couldn't find "Superman" so he searched for something different. While he was on the hunt, I was looking online for hip hop classes. I haven't decided yet if I'm going to venture out to Chelmsford to take one on my own tomorrow. We'll see how brave I get between now and then. Zach was running out of time to watch anything, so I told him to just watch a TV show and I put Spongebob on for him. He sat behind me, and I spoke to my Mom for a bit online. Not too long after, we left to meet up with Heloise at the school, where she was picking up Nathaniel, and taking those two to swimming. Josh has football until 4:20, so for the next 20 minutes, I'm going to relax a bit, watch "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire", and then walk up to get him.

Well, I went to get Josh, and they ended up finishing football late, so Heloise arrived before Josh even got off the field. I went to the car to sit with Nathaniel and Zach. We listened to Hedley, and eventually Josh and Heloise came back to the car. We got home, and while Heloise made supper, I made the boys do their homework. We then ate, did some more homework afterwards, and now they've gone up to bed. I'm sitting down to watch some good TV now :D Heloise has to go to a PTFA meeting (School), so unfortunately she's going to miss "Glee". She's trying to think of an excuse as to why she'd have to leave the meeting early. I don't think she's come up with one though. Anyway, going to go relax with the TV and Msn. Good Night xx

Day 126

What a relaxing day!! Sort of...

Of course it was silly of me to stay up until 2:30, thinking I would be able to sleep in. But what was worse, was that I had no idea the boys don't have football (soccer), for the next month. This meant that the volume level in the Downes household was raised for much longer than usual. Making it harder and harder to get back to sleep each time I was woken up. It wasn't however, until heavy footsteps entered my dream, that I woke up for good. Suddenly a small, but loud Zachary barged through my door. All the while...knocking of course. I looked up, and all that came out of my mouth was "No Zach". And I flopped my head back down on my pillow as he closed the door and walked out. If he left so willingly...why couldn't I go back to sleep? Well that's another story. You see, as soon as he left, I heard tears. Oh no! Did I make him cry? Nope! Soon after the tears, came Tim yelling at Josh for pushing Zach. Josh was trying to get Zach to stop screaming because Heloise had just told him not to wake me up by screaming. When Josh tried to stop him, Zach wasn't listening, and Josh pushed him. Thus leading to the noise coming from Tim, which clearly meant I was not shutting my eyes again anytime soon. I rolled over, grabbed my laptop, and spoke to my Mom online for a bit. Toni text me soon after, and the two of us decided we would be going to the 3:15 showing of Sherlock Holmes.

I eventually rose out of bed, got ready - all but my make up - and went downstairs for breakfast. Right after my cereal, I came up, and did my make up. I was listening to my music and having a great relaxing time, painting my nails and such. Then, there was a knock at my door. Josh had come up asking if he could read to me. He had to get his homework done, Tim told him to read out loud for 10 minutes, and Tim was too busy to listen, so Josh had to come ask me. He sat on my bed and read while I cleaned up a little bit, and did another coat of polish on my nails. When he finished, I closed the door and continued to relax. Ahhh Michael Buble up as loud as it would go before the speakers distorted the sound. Perfect. - SPEAKING of Michael Buble! - John, Tim's dad...had 4 tickets and has sold two of them :| He didn't think anyone would want them AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! He's apparently save 2 for him and I guess his gf :( I'm crushed as both shows are sold out. Anyway, I listened to my music, and did some stuff on the computer, finished my nails and played some DS. By this time, I was falling asleep. I looked at the time, to see if I could squeeze a nap in...but I wasn't sure I'd hear my phone when it rang, so I forgot about that idea. A few minutes later, I was staring at my computer...then my eyes were shutting. Luckily it was just as they shut, not giving me enough time to fall into a deep sleep, that Toni text me saying she was just leaving.

I got ready, waited a bit, and then went downstairs. Nathaniel was standing there, and saw me in my coat. "Are you going out?" Heloise asked. I said yes, and Nathaniel asked where I was going. I told him the movies, and his response was "Ohhhh I've hardly seen you!" Heloise told him that wasn't exactly true, to which he said "I mean today!" Poor guy! How cute is that? Heloise then said "Well that's because Maija is not supposed to take care of you guys on the weekend is she?" Nathaniel disagreed with her. She said I probably wanted to get away on weekends. That's when her friends said I probably wanted to get away during the week as well. Little did they know that SOMETIMES that statement is in fact the truth. Anyway, Toni arrived shortly after. I met her outside, and off we went.

When we got to the theatre, the parking lot was packed. We managed to find a spot, and waited in line to get our tickets. The previews had already started, but we of course needed popcorn. Once we were done getting that, we walked into theatre number 8, not expecting what was to come. "Sherlock Holmes" has been out for weeks now, so we thought we'd be safe. We were wrong. We ended up sitting in the 2nd row, and to the right of the screen. Ew!

The movie was good though, and after the first little while, you eventually forgot how close you were to the screen. When the movie ended, Toni drove me home, and when I came in the door I went upstairs to put my things away. When I came back down, I noticed Josh wasn't home. Oh yeah! He had swimming tonight. I spoke to Heloise, and then sat at the breakfast table to write RSVP instructions on all of Nathaniel's invitations for his party that will take place on the 24th. After sticking the last Spongebob sticker on as the seal to the invitation, I cleaned everything up, said good night, and came up to catch up on some TV. I NEED to watch Grey's Anatomy. I decided I'd have a cup of tea, and check some e-mails. Then I decided to get a start on my blog. Well, now I've finished it, my tea is almost done, and I think I'm going to jump in the shower and get ready for bed before I get too comfy watching Patrick Dempsey. Maybe, I'll even get to sleep a little earlier! (Doubt it). Speak to you tomorrow. Good Night xx

Day 125

Right now I'm sitting here waiting to have dinner. I have a huge headache, and it's probably because it's 10 to 9, and I have yet to eat. Do I go in and start making something for myself? Or do I wait until whatever they're making (Chili I think) is ready?

Today was a LONG, fun, crazy, loud, annoying day. Haha. First, the annoying part. 11 boys running up and down the stairs that lead to your room. *CLARIFICATION* 11 boys under the age of 9, running up the stairs that lead to your room. This happened around 6:30 this morning. AWESOME! I was woken up a number of times, and managed to fall back to sleep a few times...but eventually, I gave up. I decided to wait in my room, until I heard most of them leave for soccer. Then, I heard my Uncle show up, which meant Zach and Nathaniel were leaving as well. That's when I ventured downstairs to get my breakfast. I finished and went back upstairs just in time. It wasn't long after I shut my door, that I heard all of the boys return from soccer. And there were many more to come. Those ones though...I would have to be prepared for. That is after all, where the madness would be at it's peak.

I stayed in my room until 12:22. Knowing the plan was to leave at 12:30. When I went downstairs, Josh commented on the fact that it was 12:30...implying that I had only just gotten up. I told him other wise, and made it known later, that on weekends, I can stay in my room all day if I want...it doesn't mean that I'm asleep. (My family here doesn't understand sleeping in, so even if I did get the chance to do it, I would not tell them what time I actually woke up). Of course, no one was ready, and we were still waiting for some kids to arrive. As they showed up, I ushered them in. Eventually, we were all in the cars, crisps and drinks in each of their little hands, and we set off at about 1. Unfortunately I was in a car with one of Josh's MOST annoying friends. A lot of his friends are sweet hearts, they really are. But this one child...no one can stand. He's got such an attitude and is so rude. I wasn't afraid to give it right back to him though. Unlike everyone else, I'm not afraid of what his mother thinks of me. The child needs some manners. Anyway, Heloise said I was in charge of the music as we were going to be in the car for about an hour, and knowing that she enjoys Hedley as much as I do, I put that on. Of course this child had something to say about it. "Don't we have anything other than rock?" he said first. Then it was "Don't we have something like Abba?" Although I just wanted to turn around and tell him to shut up, I responded with a simple "No". He later asked if we could put something they knew on. I told him you only get to know songs by listening to them. He didn't have a comeback for that comment.

When we got to Spy Masters...it didn't look very promising. In fact...it looked like a hole in the wall. We walked in, and I had the same feeling. Up to the party room we went, and a few bathroom runs - with a number of children - were made before we set off on our mission. There were probably 4 different groups. Josh, Nathaniel, Archie, his dad Andrew, and I were all together. Our "leader" took us to the helicopter. We sat there and watched a video about our mission as the box we sat in shook. It was very cool. The door opened, and out we got. We had to zip line our way to the other side of a room. From there, we had to jump down the hatch. We came - very quickly - to a floor that was pressure padded which meant you couldn't step on it or the alarms would go off. We had to climb on the wall, with small pieces of wood framing holding us up. We got over that, had to enter a security code to open a door, and had to block out the cameras. We searched for a password to get into the computer, but were unsuccessful. Luckily it was something we didn't really need. - You only had 10 minutes to complete each room so you had to move quickly - From there, we moved to another room that we didn't get done. We weren't doing so good. Then, our luck started to change. - I may get some of these in the wrong order, as I don't remember what was where...but you'll get the idea - We had to go to another room where you needed a code to get in. One person had to crawl through a doggy door sized opening, and unlock the door for another person to go into the hall. That person then had to be directed by the rest of us, as they used a computer mouse to deactivate some lasers that we had to get through. The computer screen was facing us. That was frustrating lol, but we got through it. Once those were deactivated we got in, got what we needed and ran to the next room. We opened the door, and had to
deactivate the next camera, and have someone climb up some wood planks, and over to get a key off a hook. The key would then turn off the lasers in the doorway. Without realizing someone needed to stay behind with the key, we all ran to the next room. We searched for codes we needed under computer desks and such. Archie scanned his face, and we got a new code. Unfortunately because no one was standing on the other side with the key...the lasers in the doorway reactivated. We all had to run back through extremely quickly in order to not set off any alarms. We opened the next door with a face scan and our new code. We got to another area where we had to a number of different things, from climbing to pushing buttons in a certain order, and walking very carefully, then crawling through a small tunnel. We went into another room where there was a huge safe. I cracked it with about 6 different codes, and we opened a drawer to find a password and some clues about where the guns we needed were. We ran out of there with plenty of time to spare. Then we came to a hallway. It was very foggy, and there were lasers everywhere. We had to crawl and bend over and through them. It was awesome. We got to this place where the guns were. We had to send one of the boys through the vent to hold a button down to deactivate lasers in a window, then someone had to stick there head through that to deactivate the lasers in the doorway. The rest of us went through the doorway. I had to hold the button down for the child in the vent while he crawled back through and came to join us. We undid the safe, grabbed guns for everyone, Andrew took his head out of the window, and then I took my hand off the button. We got out of that room safely, and had to shoot out cameraas and pressure floor targets in the next room. We climbed over barrels, on planks of wood, and over mesh, to another tunnel. We went through there and came to a hall. We then had to blast a door open with a bomb we were given. Through that door, up several ladders, and to a slide. We slid down the slide, and to the debriefing room where we found out how we ranked. We got 250 points which is classified as a Class 3 Spy. Kind of a big deal. We walked out of that room, and were handed our Spy cards. That part of the day was over.

Our car was the first load to leave, as we had to get back to make dinner for the rest of them. When we arrived, I went next door to get our pizzas out of their fridge. Then, it was time to get the boys to be quiet. HAHA! That wasn't an easy task. But I managed to succeed. I put Star Wars on for them, and after giving a few looks, they understood that they had to calm down while Heloise made dinner. The first batch of pizzas were made, and that group headed into the dining room to eat. While they began, the next group arrived home, and so on. After dinner it was desserts, and once all that was done, and the table was clear, I helped Tim occupy them with some games. No one had heard of hand shake murderer! WHERE AM I?!?!?! I thought everyone knew that game. As they were playing that, and then different variations of that, parents began arriving to collect. This is the part I found VERY weird! When the kids were leaving, that's when they got their cake! And this isn't the first time I've seen it happen. I think it's a normality at parties here. You get a slice of cake wrapped in a napkin on your way out the door. So random! Anyway, the numbers dwindled, and eventually, it was just Tim and Heloise, their friends with their son, and the boys and I. The boys wanted to play wii, so we played Mario and Sonic at the Winter Olympics. I won everything :D I then let Zach take over my controller, thinking dinner would be ready soon. That's when I began this blog.

Eventually, the boys went up to bed, and we all sat and ate. When we finished, we watched a bit of Twilight so that Becky (Heloise's friend) could see Edward (A must for all females)...and then I put in "The Hangover". Not sure what they'd think of it, I was a little worried to put it in. We of course couldn't hear it all, because everyone in this household or related in some way to this household, speaks during movies...but all in all, they really enjoyed it. They laughed a lot, and thought it was cleverly done. I was so happy to hear that. As soon as it finished, I grabbed my laptop, and came up to bed. Now that I'm finished writing this, I'm going to say Good Night to my Mom, and hopefully get a good night's sleep. YEAH RIGHT! Hahahaha. Oh and I've just found out I don't have next weekend off...and I think the weekend after that is Nathaniel's birthday party. Oh My Lord :| Good Night xx